Apologizes

Not good in life

2011-11-08T01:13:00.004+08:00

Hey guys, haven't been posting for more than 1 year.
Asking myself that question.
Do my life sucks? Or
Am I sucks at my life?
Passion?? What are my passion..??
I haven't find an answer out from the question mark..
'My life seems to be a little better......'
I wish I have the guts to say it out loud
I do have high expectation of myself but I always do things at the last minute.
Wish to have some changes of my life,
but to no avail....
I give up???
I am not sure..... I just know that I'm no good at my life....
I went to a polytechnic and it's really like a dream come true
Have been struggling to climb up to the top, and yes!!!! I succeed....
I was so enthu for my second mountain that I climb it with many perseverance...
It's a great start!!!!
My first semester was pretty well....
However, after a long break, when the second semester started
I'm slowing down...
Pushing myself closely to death.....
No aim no nothing.....
I can never get things right.....
My studies are falling downwards......
The things which demoralized miie more was that I am always careless
An easy job will ended up being the stupidest thing I have ever done....
For example, I accidentally misplace my friends prepaid card....
I can't stand my self like that anymore.....
Kelvin you are a worthless piece of shit.....
You don't deserve to be in this world....
I'm not over reacting....
I am just disappointed.....
Kelvin let miie ask you a question...??
What is your dream??
..........................
Can't answer it right????
Go dig it out man!!!!!
I felt so lonely yesterday that
I suddenly have the urge to clean up my house....
I was sitting there, scrubbing the floor.....
The more I scrub, the more I felt I'm useless....
I can't control myself, I can't stop myself.....
I'm getting insane........
My life are getting colour less now.....
Kelvin you have to find some paint to brighten it up....
You are a nobody now.......
Time for miie to sleep now......
Night everyone....

miracle that will post about that great friends of mine

2010-09-08T03:02:00.004+08:00

after hearing my past especially my character..
make miie realise that i have change a lot...
won't blame anyone or my past experience...
maybe those are the things which change miie...
being 18 really made miie think a lot...
then scared this and that...
my past has given miie lots of pressure thats why i want to work hard to achieve what i don't have now....
not expecting much from others....
but myself.....
life is unfair.....
im born in a middle weath family...
that 'Yin ying' has make miie realise that i have to be.............
haha sounds stupid...
thats why don't want to say whats that...
i use to be a person who do things without thinking...
that is why i always make ppl fed up....
now im thinking a lot, make miie into a diff person....
or you can say its a scarycat.....
i looking forward to see a better miie.....
sometimes really have a lot of pressure....
why can't i have this?
why can't i have that?
why can't i earn the things i want....
really very pressure....
all this pressure make miie so pathetic and useless....
:)
yah im useless now.....
i want to make a change in my life....
i want to have my own target.....
so thats why people will now comment on miie.....
my LLA teacher first ask the class "What do you expect yourself to wear or live 20years later?"
then ask him whether "can i don't answer it......"
he ask "Why?"
i say "i don't dare to think...."
in the end, he say.....
"You fear for your future"
i was speechlesss.....
he is true....
to think of it.....
i am really afraid of my future.....
its really very scary.....
i don't even dare to think how much i wanna earn in future....
i am afraid.....
my fear......
you can ask miie to do anything......
but if something which relates to my future....
i "DON'T DARE" to do it.........
i needa be strong....
keeping secrets??????
like father, like son.....
several precaution i have made to prevent things from happening....
i know myself....
i know what kind of person i am.....
i need to change my bad habit.....
hm....really ridiculous to expect others to do things.....
its my own business and i can't drag others down with miie.....
she is very happy now.....
glad to hear from it.....
i want to work now.....
work as much as i can......
my path is still quite far away....
my goal is still nowhere to be seen....
need to work hard now.......
change myself...
stop myself.....
honestly, i hate myself.......
her words make miie think a lot too...
its still not the time yet.....
i still have tons and lots of things to do.....
:)
i will become a more mature person...
know whats the priority......
bye bye KELVIN~
feel like hearing this song.....

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i have die again....

2010-08-02T01:17:00.003+08:00

i have die again...
i feel so terrible now...
i want to cry now....
but i can't....
hm.....don't know what will happen next....
and ya...there isn't any 'fair' things in this world...
but......can anyone tell me that.....
when you all are steading with ur bf and gf.....
can you feel that, the other parties love you and cherish you a lot????
ya i mean 'the feelings'.....
why?????
why???
i don't have the feelings....
even there is....
how come the feelings will lose wan lei???
im having a bad headache now...
can someone enlighten miie????
i want to sleep forever..................

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Sad, Sad(er), Sad(est)

2010-07-26T23:06:00.002+08:00

don't know how to react now......
i feel so guilty......very sad.....
i wish nothing will happen....
and everything will be forgotten....
hm.....i hope nothing will happen and plus nothing will happen
i promise that this is my last time.....
no more....
god bless.....
thx~
hm.....toaday i very sad...
saw a message from someone that i have never talk to very long ago...
the message really make miie very emo....
don't know what to say.....
hm.....in this world there is 4 person(excluding my family) that i cherish a lot...
hm....... 1 of it is Sharon...
my current stead.....
hm....really have a lot of feelings for her....
but i don't know whether is it i ask too much...
because sometimes the way she acts, i don't feel that she mean her words....
in the other words, she didn't have any action to prove that her words are true....
haiz.....hm.....i don't what to say le.....
nvm....the other 3 person, i won't say who are they...
but i will post videos. each video represent 1 of them....enjoy tc...

This video was indirectly introduce by the person to me....

We use to listen to this sound together....i love it a lot...hm.. its my fault. i make the mistake. i really regret le. but there is no turning back now. She have the most cute personality and have a really kind heart. She can blame herself when its not her fault. And she cried before, when she saw a helpless cat, as she say she can't save it..was wondering when can we meet up again...lets fate make the decision ba.....seeya~

we are a stranger even though we know each other. Really memorable on the process we become friend. but i got nothing to say. at least i am able to look forward for the negative things happened...
*Smile*
-End-

im invisible

2010-05-19T15:51:00.002+08:00

hm......i invisible to her....
she can't see miie all the time...
trying my best to let her see miie but she just didn't see miie....
im very tired now....
i don't care what her past is like.....
i only care what our future will be like....
the more i chase, the faster your footstep goes.....
there is really a barrier between us.....
im really wanna to get rid of it....
but why do you seems that you don't care....
i know im selfish to you and i didn't put myself into your shoe....
but how about miie lei????
did you put yourself into my shoe???
did you bother to us 'what has happen to miie????'
a relationships needs 2 parties to stabalise it....
im really very tired now.....trust miie...i am really going to collapsed 1 day....
why don't i deserve a second chance????
do i really have to be "sentense to death" once i did something wrong????
i want to make a change......
but can you let miie know what you are thinking????
don't push miie away when im always trying to know more about you.....
christian and non-christian is definitely not one of our problem....
its just you.......
do you wanna to continue this relationship ma????
the choice is up to you to decide.....
hm.....nevermind then......
since your friend has given you so many suggestion....
i won't force you anymore....
you happy jiu hao....
'Follow your feelings ba'
i want you to live happily.....
because i (change the 'I' to 'O') you...
if i really can't make you to 'LOVE' miie happily....
i will then want you to 'LIVE' happily
2 more days to the answer~
-tc-

sudden sadness of 12th of April....

2010-04-12T00:59:00.003+08:00

hm.... don't know why feel so sad of today....
hm.... suddenly feel like hearing this sound....
hm...enjoy.....ba...
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Time To Give Up.....

2010-03-17T19:02:00.003+08:00

hm.....
bai sei qing ren jie(the white valentine's day) have past
hm.....expect something to get in return....
at least a bad news also can...
but i got nothing...
hm....nevermind ba....
we can't expect something that is unable to come true...
hm....this only make my mind more clear....
hm.....this may not be a bad things too.....
maybe i will be better....
'you ying pi you guo'
hm.....we will see ba....
by the way, TP & SP has rejected my DAE application...
so i still have 1/2 of the hope to get into poly....
hm....NVP & NP will be waiting for your reply...
best wishes for you.......and good luck for your studies.....
going to get ready for work now lolx....bye
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DAE result

2010-03-01T05:32:00.002+08:00

hm.... hey....
just got letter from SP...
and find out that.....
my application of DAE for SP fail....
hm.....that means 1/4 of my hope has gone....lolx....
hm.... so have to rely on NVP, NP & TP now....
hm....hope that hopes not going missing this time....
hm..... looking forward to see poly reply and accept miie as their student....
hm.....haha ok i shall stop 'hm.....' le lolx.....
congrats to those that have enter poly......
those peolpe didn't, don't give up!!!!
continue work on it.....lolx....
because people won't fail, they only give up...
as what some people say
'You Are Not Finish Unless You Give Up'
hope that it mean what i want really want to say....
Jiayou!!!!!

guessing, thinking, wondering....leads to.......nothing

2010-02-26T01:54:00.003+08:00

hm...just saw something....
haha don't know whether is it miie....
hm...because of my deleted post has make miie so curious of that question...
haha if the deleted post has really reveal to others, i have nothing to say...
because im the 1 to post it....
maybe there is a little of misunderstanding in it...
but nevermind, this is what i can't control le...
because its the past le, i can do nothing for it...
or maybe im thinking too much.....but higher chance im not thinking too much...haha
hm....
but nevermind if things really need to end up this way, i will certainly do nothing...
they may have the positive side or negative side....
so maybe this is the only way to does it....
but of course not the best way....
nevermind we will see then.....haha.....
maybe not going to solve the probelem ba....
just leave it there ba.....
leave a *Bad Record* behind may not be a bad things sometimes....
chuang dao qiao tou zhi ran zhi......
my father use to say that....
haha agree with that somehow....lolx....
tc....and end here

a new miie and can't get away from the number 1 & 2

2010-02-22T00:59:00.003+08:00

hey.....
just to let you guys know that, i hve deleted my previous post....
was really angry that time....
so those words cannot be true ba...lolx...
hm...thx kh... you are right?
its my choice, and it don't worth it....
hm....feeling much better now....
really have to be calm sometimes....
my EQ is really very high....
haha too emotional le....
hm.....yah!!!!
A new miie....
i have found it....
hm....won't give a shit of my selected past le....
ya of course....some are easy to be forgotten, and some are not....
so there is still some memories(both good and bad) is with miie now....
haha.....take time aagin ba....should learn more from kh.....
haha can lift up, can put down....
haha hope that is not an insult to you...
because its a compliment lolx......
thought my unlucky number is 12.....but actually its 1 & 2
simply can't get away from that number....
all bad things that happen is really happen at this 2 number....
was sad to hear my friend that his uncle has passed away....
someone say god is fair....
but why some caring words to tell my friend to think positively, can help them to cope emotionally....
but why can't they come true?????
feel like a pathetic again when cheering my friend up...
but the fate is going the other side of my words.....
can i have the control of the fate.....
because seeing people die is so hurtful....
im now worried about my DRY(gan) ah ma....
must be very hard for heart to accept the truth.....
Is life really unfair????
but i just want to make it fair for everyone....
will go to pay a visit 1 day.....
but of course its at the right time lah.....
hm....god bless to everyone.....
i don't want anything to happen to anyone again....
i want that 2010 to be a good abd happy year for everyone....
hm.....simply like this song a lot....so enjoy......

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forgotten how to be happy again...

2010-01-21T01:32:00.002+08:00

ya im emoing now...
haha thats why i feel like posting at this late hour....
'Happy' seems to be the hardest things for miie to do now...
i can't find it anywhere...
even at my work place, i don't feel happy at all....
hm....
maybe i emo too much le ba...
thats why i am kind of use to it le....
my ex classmate say......
"How many secrets do you still have behind your back?"
i can't answer it....
because i don't know how to answer it....
words are very dangerous...
thats why i don't wanna say it out because it might affec t the current life i am living....
i want to be free....
but i don't have a choice......
its better that i keep everything to myself....
and i bet my next post the title will be...
'When will i become crazy?'
Shhh........
haha i like quiet place sometimes...
because there is no interruption, no noise no everything that will make my condition worst....
the only i have is my mind.....
my mind can make my conditon worst if i am negative....
but on the other hand,
my condition will become better if im positive...
haah i have a choice to make....
to see whether i want it good or bad....
hope that im not scaring you guys....readers....
haha especially XIONG2
(haha i thought this will not be post le because just now my computer lack....haha ok ba....the truth is the truth)
this are my favourite emo song...haha enjoy....
sounds stupid lolx....

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change myself....

2010-01-18T13:47:00.003+08:00

hey came back again...
i didnt expect i will post again...
ya so fast....
im very tired now...
hm....ya as usual my blog will just flood with sadness and unhappiness..
think this post will be a long want again...
quite surprise that 2010 is not my year again round...
its just january and im facing tons of problems...
honestly, some are created by myself...
keep telling myself:
'Whats the point of creating?'
'Stop doing that...'
'You are nobody'
'Just get a new life'
'Stop you are scaring others...'
'All this, is your retribution'
'No point blaming others...'
kind of stupid right?
i got back my result le....
its.......im speechless....
its very bad.....
no point of saying it...
Last monday(11/1)
i told myself that i can't be weak...
because your friends are all crying....
try your best to cheer them up...
even you can't....don't let them know that you are sad...
because you are just giving them more burdens....
my result was so bad......
i am very sad...very very sad....
but as long as my friend can get up from their fall,
mine is nothing compare to them....
so cheer up....
you are very lucky le....
haha maybe i am selfish to myself, haha nvm...
because i know that i am not selfish to others.
thats enough for miie le....
after that i went to play pool till night....
haha and ya...i didn't went home that night....
the next day(tuesday 12/1)
my bro and i went to Republic Poly together with his friends
to ask them whether is there any help
but its seems none.....
haha nothing much to post....
Wednesday(13/1)
we went to Ngee Ann Poly
ya because there seems hope for miie to poly....
go there and check out some details....
and off i go to the chalet....
(my bro is quite angery upon hearing that)
during the chalet everyone was just watching some show...
haha so i just walk here and there....
ya doing nothing
*And you! i know you are not drunk, but must know your limit ok?
that day i was very tired, but i tell myself not to sleep..
after i saw my friend just came back from....haha you should know
no matter what, you need to stay awake....
ya its just a short while only and off i go....
Thursday(14/1)
i went to meet up my bro....
we went to severals poly again
trying every help we can find to get miie to poly....
apply for DAE for 4 poly technic....
SP NP NYP TP
readers get this clear....must study hard....
or else you will be very tired....
its more like a begging to every poly....
around 7 plus....
i reach the chalet...
everyone was preparing for Andy's Birthday
ya there is some conflicts
shall not post much for it...
haha just hope that Andy did enjoy that night...
that night i was half relax and half stress
im relax because i have finish my DAE and JAE
stress?
problem seems to running through my friend mind....
its no point of asking because nothing will be spill out....
so i just went to sleep...
ya its a way of running away
(BUT I CAN DO NOTHING)
Friday(15/1)
packing out our stuff....
my friend is.......
haiz....didn't really talk to her that day
the most comfortable chat is when both of us say 'Bye Bye'
Overall.....
i really very thankful to my bro that he accompany miie to every poly to apply for DAE. Hm....maybe the way i present myself isn't that thankful, because i am not a direct person....but Thanks! Will treat you 1 day....hope that both of us can get into the same poly....
Yesterday i was very pissed of....
i can feel the heat running through my body...
i can also feel my eyes is changing....
during that moment i can only feel hatred....
my EQ is really damn low.....
don't know when then can i know how to control my temper...
haiz....i ask too much le....
KELVIN CHIN SEOW KEONG!
Wake up ok?
MUST DO WHAT THE TITLE OF THE BLOG SAY OK?
'Change Myself'
Remember!
CHANGE YOURSELF
you better don't give any burdens to anyone le....
and special thanks to Sandy.....
Thanks for correcting my way or else i will be another person le.....
hope that everything will be like before.....
and KELVIN you better don't do stupid things or else....you will regret....
do what youy should do, but not do what you shouldn't do....
ok?
Really need to find a time to relax myself ba....
haah friends of mine must jio miie out arh...
lolx...
Chin kok!
you too...
Cheer up!
i won't say much because i don't want to pour cold water at you.....
Xiong2.....
Take care too......
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A Change of Mind

2010-01-06T22:03:00.136+08:00

Hi..
i just came back from chalet...
wasn't a good 1 in fact...
never been to a chalet which will bring lots of unhappiness to miie...
hm....the worst part is that i got drunk on the first day...
didn't realise that i finish half bottle of the vodka...
haha.....the world is spinning and im spinning too...
many things has just happen before the chalet, thought of enjoying myself there and forget everything....but........
i saw her.....why is the world like that?
everytime when i make up my mind, everything will just come back to miie....
hm....thats why i plan to drink alone....
disstress.......
while i am still half awake, quite surprise to see my brother/sister came back....
thought that person is going for cycling....
and when i am all alone, i can go drink...
shout out everything i want....because no one will know it nor hear it....
my plans totally fail when my brother/sister came back....
honestly,
i still remember what happen that day when im drunk, but some.....
cannot really recall....just hope that i didn't do anything bad....
hm....after that incident, trying all my best to "go back to the past when we use to be great friends"
it goes quite well in the afternoon, but at night wasn't that well.
because the way my brother/sister acts make miie totally feel like..........someone that is bad...the word is very very bad...thats why i didn't want to spell it out...
during the walk at night alone...i tell myself something that....
我已经被判死刑了。。。。
nevermind le....its not important le...
for now.... i just trying my very best to get things back like before....
my wish is....everyone can forget that.....
let life continue like that....
hm......honestly the title of this post is actually
“被判死刑的我”
but thanks to that message, i have decide to change it.....
that is why it is call
"A Change of Mind"
will never forget that 背影....
even if we are just friend.....
i won't forget that.....
because it belongs to my friend? brother? or sister?
haha don't know what we are le lolx....
just hope that we will get back like before....
i will always side you whenever anything happens....
haha thats why i will always be at your back....
help? jokes? crap? nonesense?
whatever you want.....
i can try my best to provide it....
but please....not monkey.......i rather become a pig than that....T.T...
hm....text miie when you are free ba...
as you know...i won't message you.....
haha you should know why lolx.....
results coming out on monday.....
hope that there will not be any disappointment again.....
and oh ya...good luck to you lolx....haha should give you a name here....
"Xiong2"
haha sound disgusting
haha but nvm because its not my nick....
having a chalet next week again...
wish that it will not be any unhappiness....
will want the 'Frisbee chalet' to replace the 'Current chalet' that i have went to....
God Bless miie and to you too.....
take care....enjoy
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Think it through...

2009-12-30T15:30:00.004+08:00

hm....i am back again....
just realise something again....
hm....i don't blame anyone
because this will just came to us by accident....
hm....got a lot of lesson...
Failure OVER AND OVER AGAIN HAPPENING TO MIIE....
hm.... most probably its because of miie...
i am easy paranoid....
have to end this now...
don't want to hold anyone back...
wanna to be back to myself....
takes time again...
i bet its a good thing to you ba....
going to stop thinking le...
really very sad. VERY SAD~
maybe going to delete everything of you...
thats why people won't see you
and you won't see yourself here...
you will only be 1 place....
no one is able to see you....
hm....must be still waiting for your blockhead
then i will wish you good luck...
you can do it...
(i mean it)
although i really don't want it to happen..
but 1 person suffering is better than 2
Letting you go is the best solution...
hm.... people say they are evil...
hm..evil?
haha whats that to miie?
it meant nothing to miie...
i am losing myself again...
but i won't tell anyone who i am? Or what i am?
hm....again itas a post of saddness again....
flooded with my blood and my tears again....
the world is the truth....
don't need any consultation...
because it will only make miie worst....
my heart is temporary dead again..
maybe its true
there is such thing as retribution...
hope that i have pay up all my debt le ba...
will force myself to work again....
letting go its easy but..........................haha
going to close myself.
don't want to show my emotion to others
wanna tape or glue a smile on my face....
and thats all....
no one know whats behind it
going to end here.....bye...
my next post will be.............
haha UNKNOWN.....ENJOY THE VIDEO SOME ARE OLD SONGS HOPE YOU READERS DON'T MIND

my last time....

2009-11-14T00:38:00.002+08:00

hm....exams are over....
there is a lot of time
ya lots of time for miie to think a lot
be emo
hm...having exam is not a bad thing because it will only make miie busy all the time...
everyday EAT SLEEP, STUDY.....
when there is no more exam...
must be a emo time for miie ba.....
hm....ya...this is not a bad thing again....
because you won't be lost in my memory...my mind...
hm....just to add in...
hm....my study place will be the user place like...Khatib mac and Yishun Drive Thru Mac.....
at khatib mac....i was always occupie with friends....
but in Drive Thru Mac.....i choose to be alone
hm.....because i use to spend time there with....
although its just 1 day...
but its the day when i am really very happy....
hm...i remember that day i was studying for my O level....
SHE came....
ya although the purpose for her to go there is just to meet her friend...
but this is the time when i feel that we are so close....
was very excited during the time....
but of course
i didn't show it out....
haha maybe thats miie...
i don't like to say things straight...
i like to twist and turn.....
thats why i always offended lots of people
hm....especially you.....
after studying at drive thru mac....
i use to walk to the yishun bus interchange by passing by chong pang....
but i just found a new route....
i name it 'The Route of My Memories'
hm.....whatever things i do there is a reason behind it.....
lets refresh back to my study life ba.....
During my study period, i always go home at 10.45pm...
not too early....nor too late....
ya 10.45pm....this is around the time when she has end her work and reach yishun....
(at least i have the choice to wait for her to end her work and reach home safely....)
not too early, because i might meet her....
as i am afraid to meet her....
because i don't know how to face her...
and this may not be the time for us to meet....
although i really want to meet her....
but the feelings will be totally different.....
so just let both of us to have some peace....
neither of us will bother anyone...
hm....but on 10/11....
that will be my last day walking that route....
because my O level end le....
so maybe there is a very low chance that i will be going there again....
i will missed the place....
that route...
that time....when i hold your hand automatically while crossing the road...
it is really very close....
the car is like so close to us....
hm....lucky that you are ok....
and im such a stupid.
because everytime when i cross THAT road, my hand will automatically raised up to the height of my hips.....
but after that, i then realised that there is no one beside miie....
hm....ya i am a stupid person.....like to do all sorts of stupid things.....
shall i run away from the truth?
hm...maybe will still do so ba...
by working all day...
MAKE MYSELF EXHAUSTED.....
THEN DON'T HAVE TO THING ANYTHING LE....
haha.....
there is other thing i will like to add in....
during mooncake festival, i did say the mooncake is very 'KU'
hm...because i celebrate the day on my own.....
i did go around to find where are you....
i even bought the sparkles...
just in case it is needed.....
honestly, we did pass by each other....
because on that day, i pass by the kinder garden at blk 746...
i didn't notice you are at the park....
i just walk like that....
this really proven something to miie....
we are not proven to be together.....
honestly, I STILL LOVE YOU....
but sometimes there is something which is beyond my control.....
i am really speechless....
didn't know how to react that time....
but nevermind....
i hope that you will xinfu.....
LZ I LOVE YOU....
and eveyone should try to listen to the song sang by Brian McKnight
'Back At One'
BYE

-END-

2009-11-14T00:04:00.002+08:00

no title....
maybe will be posting a long post later...
hm...so readers
sorry arh.....
it will be boring again....
but it have been stored in miie for very long
ever since O level start...
so sorry readers
if that doesn't meets your expectation of a blog post...
-end here-

Going crazy soon....

2009-10-07T23:56:00.005+08:00

hi im back again...

hm....yes im going crazy soon....

its hard to pretend someone that you are not...

its hard to put up a smile when you are sad....

forcing myself to be happy

but in the end, i am making myself more sad.....

hmm......ya really don't know whats that.....

really want to ask but i can't....

its totally different from what i use to feel.....

hm....maybe i just think too much ba....

or its the truth as she is trying to give miie a answer indirectly....

really don't want to force anyone....

hm.....im so tired now.....

very tired....

but i have another fear.....

i fear to get on my bed and sleep....

because i don't dare to dream....

hm... didn't really sleep well for few days.....

but even there is time for miie to sleep, i choose not to.....

because do you know how scary it is.....

really don't know what i want now....

honestly i feel so fortunate that, the day before yesterday.

Because although i sleep for very long, but i didn't dream of anything...

thats so lucky of miie....

because i really scared to dream....

i was wondering should i sleep later.....

ya really very tired....

but please, if i really sleep

GOD....don't let miie to dream.....

haiz....its just like having a fade hopes all along......

I can really able to say those three words very seiously because i have really make up my mind le.....

but.......

its no point for miie to say now.....

lets see whether i have the chance again ba....

ya honestly although i say i have already let go.....

but.....*smile*

you are so jiaohwa....

you ran back to my my again...

haha.....really don't want you to suffer thats why

i have lots of words in miie doesn't want to say out.....

ya....maybe towards others im not competeable....

but i can say im another person that fall into your well(trap) very deeply....

if someone is as deeper than miie, haha maybe i will use hand to dig out all the soil that is below miie....

to make it deeper.....haha stupid i know..

someone ask miie..

"Why do you have to do that? Haven't you ever thought of climbing out?"

haha my answer will be.....

haha no point because the answer is easy....

haha 'i don't want to come out'

haha people call miie stupid, haha i just love being stupid....

maybe really got your hint le....

haha.....although i don't want that to be the truth.....

but i have to accept the facts....

nevermind there is lots of ways to love someone....

so i have found my way le.....

although its not the way i want....

but i do not have much choice or i don't have a choice le.....

hm....i can let go of you now....

its hurtful, but i will be strong....

and let all of your all guys to guess something...

theres a riddle for everyone of you....

haha see carefully le....

People say:

Letting go of you,

7 words to add in...

haha readers make a guess ba....

haha because sometimes not everything can say it out de...

so lets guess ba....

enjoy...

-END-

I ask too much....

2009-10-06T00:55:00.002+08:00

hey im back again.....

hm...maybe its a boring post again readers...

hope that i didn't disappoint you all....

haha....

hm... today was a sleepy day for miie

really disappoint myself a lot today...

instead of going to khatib mac and study..

in the end,

i spent my 3 to 4 hours or time slepping...

haha so didn't really study much english today

haiz....

hm...exam coming my way in 2 weeks time...

got lots to prepare...

so hope that i still can make it...

hm...god bless me again....lolx

another topic(lolx):

hm....sometimes we have to act normally...

really get the picture quite clear now....

hm....i can feel that everything will be over when my O level is over..

so don't think there is a point for miie to stay up till so late le...

the word 'annoyed' is really a powerful word...

i can sense that too...

i can no longer be interesting again...haha....

i think its has really lost it le....

hm....don't know how to make another 1 out.....

hm.....haha really kind of speechless.....

but no matter what,

thats the truth....

you can't do anything

no matter how afraid i am, it will really have to come 1 day...

really a little 不舍得

haha like what i say in my previous post.....

船到桥头自然直。。。

但我觉得我的船已经无法动了。。

船已经沉入水里了。。。

现在再也不会有答案了。。。

因为我已经得到我的答案了。。。。

应该放手了。。

这样我就不会成为你的负担。。

那你也可以活得快乐许多。。。。

因为我喜欢看到你快乐的样子。。。

就让我自己承受这些吧。。。

当成是我的教训或暴饮吧。。。

这句话送给你：

只要笑一笑，这个世界才会更美好。。

如果我的伤痛和痛苦可以换来你的一笑，我觉得好值得喔。。。

.....TvT...

-end-

hm...can't sleep....

2009-10-05T04:48:00.004+08:00

hm...hi...

its damn late...or in other words it is very early....

haha still unable to fall asleep....

hm...maybe can say unable to sleep or scared to be asleep..haha....

don't like to dream now because when dream is over, everything will be going back to the normal way....

the truth is still the truth...

i can't run away from it.....

hm....later haveing english blk revision.....

but i was wondering do i have the energy to attend the lesson....

but most probably i got to....

o level is coming fast.....

this month is my O's le......

hm.... very scared.....wondering who can help miie to calm down...

kind of need some support in studies and mentally...

haha i was wondering can i reach my goal....

English: B4

A Math:A1

Science:A1

Chinese:A1

Humanities: most probably A2....

hm.....can i promo to Poly first year....
it will still remains as a Questin to all and miie until the release of O level Result
hm... will try my best too.....
god Bless miie.....
and lastly,
im looking forward everyday for miracles to come towards miie.....
please...miracles my.......
haha can't say again.....
wondering hows the life of her????
i can't ask because NO guts.....
doesn't want to disturb her.........
because im afraid things might go worst....
hm.. maybe we will lost contact for very long like we use to be....
half a year if im not wrong....
but in this time,
maybe 1
2
3
4
years maybe....
lets wait for miracles to happen although the chance in succeeding is very low.....
wonder what can i do.....
but i think there is nothing i can do now...
because its too late to regret......
hm.....thinking of it every single day even when i was studying.....
hm......lets see ba.....
船到桥头自然直。。。。
ya there is something for miie to share that is at the top haha
as i just get a photo...
so enjoy laughin ba because......
its looks funny to miie too....haha
haha im weird.....
In Additon,
and maybe not going to sleep today again le....bye....
-end-

waiting is miserable

2009-10-04T01:40:00.004+08:00

hey im back with a very terrible feeling in miie

i am really very stress now

its miserable

what can i do?

i can't do anything

in my mind there is alot of 'What If'

'What if here'

'What if there'

What if......

i can't say out

i am very scared now

i don't want to lose it just like that....

im scared

very very scared

can anyone tell miie what is the right choice?

hm....

puzzle are fun

but being puzzled is not fun

as every bit and pieces are matching to form an answer....

its bad...

very very bad

i don't want it to come true....

but it is beyond my control

im feel so heavy now.....

how long do i have to be like this....

i don't want to lose it

because it really mean a lot to me....

i can sense that something bad is coming my way....

im scared

what can make miie to calm down?

what can i do to make myself calm down?

pulling my hair now....

not to make it spike...

but to get an answer from my mind

wanted to pull it out....

hw long do i have to tolerate with this pain and misery.....

really very scared...T.T......

this is the first time in my life i felt so frighten....

miracle or fate?

which one to choose?

i want miracle....

i don't want fate....

i want miracle to make us to be fated.....

because i really..............

cannot say here....

my mind is pulling myself apart now....

im going out of control soon...

please no matter what...

my mind plese stay cool and obedient...

let miie to control you please....

because i don't want to do something stupid.....

i once make a big mistake so i don't want to make that same particular mistake again....

Please endure to success.....

ENDURE!

to miie the mooncake that i eat just now is bitter(ku)

because im all alone celebrating the mooncake festival on my own....

i have no place to go...

because there is no place that can fix miie into it.

im just a extra......

WTF!!!!!!!!!

im going crazy soon......

please KELVIN...

'ENDURE TO SUCCESS'

-end-

Can't sleep arh...

2009-10-03T03:55:00.003+08:00

hey im back..haha again

hm...kind of bored because im still waiting....

but nevermind...

everyone have the time when they are tired....

so i can understand....

hm....in addition there is no reason for you to reply...

because you have a choice....

hm....sad a while only

but after that ok le....

hehe.....

hm... wondering what my future will be sia....

lolx....

hm....thinking a lot again

because i just finish watching the video on

'Fann Wong and Christopher Lee wedding'

haha interesting

they have their way to start their story...

kind of interesting

so must study hard now for my future

really scared that my future will be....

haiz....

really wish to live in a family which are

First: Happy

Second: Not very rich nor poor just 'normal Rich can le'

Able to support a family of 5 to 6 people(including me lah) im ok with it le

Third: United

hm... really have to work for it le...

haha target.....

the earliest for me to get married will be at a age of....

30!

haha but before that i have lots of things to do

have a lot of things to settle first

hm..my O level will be my priority...

second....haha maybe will share next time.....

hm...its a wish that i want it to come true as soon as possible

ya can say its miie 'Yi Xiang Qing Yuan' lah

hm...don't know whether if it is really a bad things, what will be my reaction????

will take times to calm myself down ba

or maybe work Daily....haha 15hr....

wah....

hm... will end here...

maybe i don't know whether should i make a miracle of my own or wait for miracles to come to miie...

temporary will be waiting ba....

later is celebrating of moodcake festival..

hope that someone can jio me go out, although im already going out with my friend lah....

but honestly, i can push it aside anytime

thats seem selfish to my friends.....

hm...just let miie be selfish for this time ba...

Will Be Waiting~

(just to add in, please don't be upset while reading my post. Im Sorry..)

-end-

problems affect my feeling and my mentally thoughts

2009-10-03T00:40:00.004+08:00

hey finally feel like blogging again

hm...lets start with the title of my blog ba

hm....o level is coming

24days for miie to catch up...

hm....i do have the mindcept that i am not able to promo my self to Poly 1 at Singapore poly

L1R4 14 points

hm....i feel that no matter how much revision i did, its no use

because i don't feel something is going into my mind

hm...going to rush now

and i don't know how long can i take the stress..

hm....

my Chemistry was like sucks....don't even know how to answer a simple question

how can i get a A1 like this??

every subject will hold me back from reaching my goal

Chines....i aim for a A1

but it seems like the target is going further away from me le

because i don't think i did enough practice

my friends the chinese is like improving

and im still going backwards...

sometimes i really envy and angry when they say something in chinese which i can't understand

i told myself, when i am slacking, try to remind myself the feeling when i got myself a C5 for my chinese GCE O Level

the feeling is terrible

but why am i still not improving

i did remind myself every single day

but it seems no use...i am still behind all my friend

English...ya i got a D7 for or E8 for my english during my Prelim..

really trying to buck up now

i don't mind to have any help from every direction

at least give me a C6 for it

although i aim for B4 lah....

haiz..Ber thanks for your tutoring

i will try my best

as i don't want to waste your afford and waste my time in Secondary school

really Stress

haiz....

Physics...

although i didn't fail my physics

but its not up to my standard

i aim for a A1

really have to memorise the notes le

A math....its kind of stupid for me

because i score 29/80 for my paper 1

then i score 75 /100 for my paper 2

hey KELVIN waht are you doing?

its really stupid for you to do that

A1 you know

A1!!!!!!!!

you bloody idiot better wake up..

hm...geography and social studies(humanities)

ya haven't even started

haiz...aim for a A1 but A2 also can lah...

attitude still like that...... hey KELVIN if you continue like that, you will suffer

in addition, you will disappoint your mum you know?

better wake up now...

although i tell myself this...

but eveyone have the time when they are weak

'I really need someone to support me mentally'

i want you to help me to cope mentally

i want to let you see when im weak

as i can only share with you that im weak

let you see

only you

because i hardly will show my true colours sometime...

No matter where are you now?

'I REALLY NEED YOU NOW!'

Can you give me a hand?

no only now

but forever....

i want to hold on to you and we can support each other when we face any probems next time....

haiz....ya its too late for me to say this now.....

Honestly nowadys i am listening to 2 songs....

ya only that 2 songs.....

i find myself a little too late to realise that the song is very nice and meaningful

ya...i love it now

thats why i am listening again and again....from daytime till night time

thats sound unbelieveable ba...

ya....

if you guys don't believe, just imagine i am a liar ba.....

guys..... and girls....

try to pay more attention things that are happening around you....

don't be too late to tell them that you love them....

because when the feeling is gone, no matter how many time you say that

it mean nothing to them....

People say:'Once a feeling is gone, its gone forever'

I don't want to believe this but there is no one i know including me

'Ever does it'

Is there any miracle?

Should i believe in Miracle or Fate?

from what i am doing now, i think its Fate for me ba....

haiz...im looking at my handphone now....

waiting for miracle to happen...

but the time is passing fast.....

but Miracle still haven't came to my doorstep....

I am waiting, waiting and waiting.

Really thought of being doing something at 10am, 11am and now....

but im afraid

i don't dare to be positve....

because

‘希望越高，失望越高’

haiz.....

I heard that...

上地制造水，是因为他们知道我们会渴

上地制造米，是因为他们知道我们会饿

上地制造爱情，是因为他们知道有我们这些白痴。。

ya i admit i am a idiot....

because i am already very stupid le

because something have make me become stupid....

get what i mean by that ma....?

my friends tod me to let go....

but its hard....

so should i hold on?

haiz....i really hope that there is really something i can do....

but it seems nothing

haiz...

Rumours are spreading around or to me...

all are negative lah...

honestly i don't believe them

if i do, i only believe half....

because........im stupid....what make me stupid lei?

haha...finally able to put a smile or a laugh here le....

I will be waiting for my phone....

Waiting and waiting for miracle to happen....

but hope that im not doing the wrong thing.....

and whatever i say here, if really feel offending or make you angry

'I Am Really Sorry'

in the end, i can't wait anymore le...

in the end, i pick up my phone and make my own miracle...

is that a wise choice?

no one can answer my question ba....

i bet its not....

because i am just

一厢情愿。。。

see!

how stupid i can be...

一见钟情我去年曾体验过，但我呢够在继续我人生的故事吗?

-end-

many 'WHY' in me where there is no solution for it...

2009-09-27T04:48:00.012+08:00

hey the boring post is back....

as what i say from the previous post

"i might going to share my sadness sooner or later"

but i have decided le!

im not going to say anything out

as sometimes not everything can be said out....

because if i really did i may have to handle the consequences

which i may go crazy 1 day because i can't handle or even overcome it

everything is fine like that

although keeping the truth from others sometime are not good

but there is something call

'善意的谎言'

to say it in english

it is a 'good intentional lies'

hm...sorry if my english is very broken to your all

i don't want to make any trouble

hm...maybe i am going to write in my fullscape or my personal diary of my own....

hey blog...im sorry i can't use you to dwell all my unhappiness....

hm.....i really don't know what to type now?

or maybe what can i type now....

im speechless.....

Reminder:

everyone who are reading this post

before you all start a relationship, please think it carefully

ask yourself 4 main question:

Can you be understanding?
Can you accept and willing to help them to correct their bad habits?
After hearing your bad habit, are you willing to correct it?
Do you really love him/her?(IMPORTANT!!!!)

this question sound easy

but they are the question which may prevent a relationship to end just like that.....

Lastly, its hard to find someone you love when they also love you

so don't give out on a relationship so easily because both will suffer

and people have you heard before something call

'REVENGE'

How you treat people now, people will treat you the same way in future.

but this is just a matter of time.....

i strongly believe this becaue i have get my lesson le

its not 1 but 2 lesson.....

so think wisely next time......

i wish that everyone will be truthful to your stead

no more tricks

because.....you all should know....

-end-

haha i just remove something from here

its actually 5 lines long but..

hm...its better not to be shown

SAD period

2009-09-23T23:12:00.002+08:00

hi many things happen on miie

got a lot to say

but maybe not now

maybe later or next time

i wish that......

nevermind not important le

haiz.....

what do you think i can do or say now?

maybe will write my feelings later or next time ba

lastly,

you may have your own reason of doing this

so i support your decision

hope that you will xinfu.........

erm.....

too late to say now.....

take care....

'i becoming stupid again....'

i bet you know whats the meaning for that

because the reason is simple

if you are reading this, if you are free, give my younger bro a call.

as he request from miie.

thx...

-end here-

wedding day

2009-08-02T01:10:00.003+08:00

Angela and Ricky have married.....

hey back again to post my boring posts....

today was fun because my cousin ANGELA is finally marrried...

hm.. she is a kind cousin with loud voice and having some sense of humour too...

its great that she have found someone that she love and will spend the rest of the life with him..

hey lucky guy....Ricky don't bully her hor although i know she is always the one bullying you,,

haha but no mater what, wish that both of your all will last till, both of your all hair turn white

(bai tou dao lao)

honestly i envy them a lot...

i was wondering will i be able to married a girl i loved in future..

ya sounds desperate but really hope that i will really have a chance for to guide my love one until the end of her life.....

Will my dreams come true????...nevermind we will see and i will have to change my bad habit too....

hm.. heard that the guys are clever as they brought along a cutter to cut the lock open if the girls refuse to open the door...

smart guys man..

water guy were also use to punish the girls....

although those things have been done, in the end the still can't get in because Ricky forgot to bring the key along with him...

haha yes old method were use

that will be distributing of ANG BAO....

no only that, they were ask to dance some stupid things such as dancing and singing romantic song....

haha no matter what, i am really happy for them...

the wedding dinner were fun too....

took some photo but maybe i will upload it next time....

either in my blog or facebook ba...

i was very full, today hm...DIE ARH DIE.....

I AM GOING TO BECOME FATTER AGAIN......T.T.............

hm....lastly i will say...
Angela jie jie and Ricky kor kor hope that both of you all will be forever happy.....

mr unknown thanks to remind me that the world will still revolve

ya it will still revolve without me but honestly my life will be stuck at that moment forever...

so even the world is revolving everyday, but to me its not because everyone is living at their own choose world....

so to you its revolving but maybe to miie its too but my brain my heart is not....

*hey sorry mr unknown if you are reading this disgusted words

but in future you will get my meaning...so hope that you stay long long with your love one forever...take care....*

-end of the boring post-

don't feel like sleeping

2009-07-27T02:46:00.000+08:00

hey im back...
hm.. its really very long when i last blog again
haha because someone make a comment of my blog that its boring...
so i am spending sometimes to think how can i improve on my blogging.
but its still the same
no idea at all.
hm.. maybe going to post once in a blue mood....
haha hope that the person that make comment on miie will recover soon....hope to see you in school later....
sometimes my thoughts love to bring miie back to the past...
in other words, my thoughts are telling miie that my only happiness stopped last year....
never going to be as happy as i was in the past.
love to see the smile, the activeness, the family and better you can say the distance when i use to stand with........i can say that although this distance is about 0.0000000001m away....
to you you will still think that....'Why are you still so far?'
:)have anyone have the same thinking like miie?
hm....yes i am really 'ben de ke yi'
i can honestly say that....i am not a very good guy
i bullies the weaklings
know their weakness then started to bully them
hm....what can i say.....i am a lan ren....
when i saw some photos that my primary school friends took with her stead...
i am full of envious. Full of pei fu. And full of.....don't know what can i say le
i can only say that he waits for her true love for 4 years
and now he have finally get his true love attention
both of them, they are very happy together
honestly i know both of them.
how i wish that i can at least be half of him.
having to control and knows what he want.....
able to control himself from the world full of temptation...
shadow?
have anyone of you all heard of it?
yes i did..
there are two meanings
1 are the dark figure that can seen in the night...
2nd will be 'people'
i make someone to go through this word...
can you imagine how bad i am now.....
i am xiaoqi, pervertic, naughty, useless, zhuang ke lian infront of people, act pro and like to cause a lot of problem to happen....
i wonder if there is a word without ME what will it looks like?
must be very peaceful ba.....
when will be my last mouthful of breath?
im scared...i don't want to die so early
but sometimes when times come, it will be very hard for us to react with it.
another will be because 'life is unfair'
we can't force something to happen when it can't happen at happen at all
if you are forcing it to happen in the other words, you are just lying to yourself...
its late now i know but i don't think i will sleep today
maybe i will wait for another 2 hrs and off to school.
***Die my cousin is having a wedding dinner this coming saturday
and now i am trobling about money
ya i am craving to get a new set of formal shirt.
Eg. new jeans, belts, neck tie and a formal shirt(better to be white in colour)
and another will be i felt bad if i go there empty handed.
will try to pack a ang bao of $50 for her
but the most important thing is that Angela i hope that you will be very xinfu.....and don't forget about my ang bao on chinese new year arh....lolx
ok shall end here....
readers sorry as its a bore post again.....
-end-

2009-06-05T17:28:00.002+08:00

hm... just came back from camp

hm... kind of tired now so will post my O level chinese and camp stuff next time

maybe going to sleep later

hm... bye....

eating ice cream now yum yum!!! lolx

-end-

Stress and fear

2009-05-31T12:38:00.002+08:00

hey i am back again

hm.. was whondering whether will this be a long post

hm.... tomorrow is my mother tongue O level examination

i am now still stuck

haha very confuse really

hm... i was given pressure both by my own expectation and my leg

ya its still a little pain as i twisted my ankle last week

hm....

or you can say its my heart that are playing tricks at miie telling miie that my leg is still pain

i don't know

need to disstress myself now

hm..... honestly i haven't start my chinese revision

and this is the last day for miie to revise my work

i know that last minute work won't help miie much

but now what can i do?

i still have to try

my exam tomorrow i can only do it base on my the knowledge that i have for the pass few years

i can't blame anyone for this as its miie that waste too much time le

i am afraid of a lot of things now

no one know but miie

i know that my studies is dropping

chinese too

friend in my class is catching up faster and faster

but miie is going down faster than faster

i can feel that something is coming towards miie

that will be FAILURE...

what if, i didn't get a A1 or A2 for my chinese

what if, i won't be able to get my L1R4 14 points at the year 2010?

what if, i will be blank tomorrow after receiving my paper?

in my body there is a lot of what if,

what if here

what if there

WHAT THE HELL!!!!!

hm... but decision is up to miie now

ya the decision is to make both on my studies and my life

hm..... ok should end here

i going out to study now le.....

bye....

-END-

sian..now..later going out

2009-05-23T15:27:00.002+08:00

hey did post yesterday

hm..yesterday was fine and i felt that the time past really very fast when i am having my chinese lesson for full 5hr

not so boring actually lolx

after school went to play soccer, after that went to 717 and eat

then went to mac to write request for my lazy lanzhu haha then went to amk and meet her and her friends to watch movie( night at the museum 2)

haha its really a nice show haha ya definitely better than the first 1

hm...after the movie went to walk around here and there

haha ya its Sian!!!!!lor lolx

hm... nevermind i have my dinner at mac

YES! got my blue cup le lolx

hm.... 3 more cups to go lolx.....

hm....meet binteng and Yilin at amk hub walk walk again...YA sian again

acc lanzhu and her friends to bus 853 thought of going home but i didn't

hehe meet up with jiaxing and hantu to go bishan find meixin

wow!! 6 months plus never see her and now she is pregnant

wow....SURPRISE!

haha wish her good luck and will become a good wife and mother

all of us went to toa payoh and eat and of course i didn't lah...

haha i am not a hungry pig like.....haha lanzhu are you reading this?

LOLX....

finish eating, slack and chat at the void deck

hm... something happen when we are at the void deck

but won't elaborate here...

about 11plus, went to the nearest bus stop and take bus 155 home

hantu and jiaxing acc meixin home as because she is pregnant must keep an eye on her la

haha ya i am the selfish type wan lolx

reach home use com.. sleep

my this post is kind of boring la....

haha so sorry and thanks for reading lolx...

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laziness

2009-05-21T21:13:00.001+08:00

hm..kind of lazy to post haha will try to keep it short

hm....next next week1st of june is having O level chinese

just wanna hope that i will score at least a A2

its kind of greedy la

but yes i want it

so god bless miie ok

hm... our school is starting chinese lesson for full straight hr tomorrow

so hope that i won't fall asleep

if i did i will hope that i can endure with my laziness

hm.... then just to let you know i am not working for this and the next week

hm...nevermind as i got to missed it this week too

no no point of going there.haha nevermind ba

will try to appeal for the next next week

haha......

hm... i passed muy humanities..

kind of shocking

geography 32/50

SS 25/50(haha was luck lor)

haha but anyway for the time being will try to work hard for chinese first

and lastly, yesterday i took my class photo and today i took my CCA(basketball) photo

as i didn't take the photo for CCA since SEC 1 to 4

so since this is the last year i think i won't want to missed it

hm....but no different as i think this year i will look awful as the position i stand and sit is......

=_=lll

WEIRD lor..

haha nevermind weird jiu weird ba

as iwill want to make it memorable for my sec 5....

(KELVIN CHIN SEOW KEONG must work hard for O level......JIAYOU!!!!!)

SINGAPORE POLY. ARH!!!!!!

-end-

my poor marks

2009-05-19T22:47:00.003+08:00

haha someone missed miie alot..(lolx BHB)

carebear love my bag...

like a parachute

haha my lanzhu care bear

haha....

my chinese mid year exam

hi this maybe a short post

1.)Physics P2- 53.5/65
2.)english paper-41/100-Fail(E8)!

3.)Science mcq(chemistry and physics)

-30/40(by luck lolx..)

4.)A math P1-61/80

A math P2-62/100

Total-64.5/100(0.5 to B3..T.T..)

wish that my chemistry will score at least 44/65

so will get A1 for my science

haha god bless miie...

hm... today did chat with her le

hm....but i love the way we are now

hm... as its true for the things i message you in the past

but just let keep as this state

hm.. may sound weird but nevermind at least i am able to see you....

its enough le i think

wanna to see you *smile* forever

will try to control myself to do those things that will make you feel annoyed

i will be normal like the first time you know miie

full of craps!

lame jokes!

and always make you feel joyful

YAH.....i will try.....

*SHOUT!*

for the last time

-end-

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY TO ANDY!!!!!

2009-05-18T22:27:00.005+08:00

Oh that miie with the tie..

first time wear tie sia lolx......

Movie ticket Angels and Demons

damn nice lox..

Andy's b'dae cake

our b'dae boy...

going to cut cake 1...

going to cut cake 2...hm...

going to cut cake 3...lolx..

going to cut cake 4...=_=lll

going to cut cake 5.....haha

in the end still haven't cut cake

haha no photo of it lolx.....LAME!

photos take at bugis starbucks

guys zip..girl big smile..

middle two trying to make weird faces

show our teeths...hey!

not fair you are not doing it AGAIN!

oh thats better!!!eee....lolx...

twist.....

andy.. what are you thinking???

KELVIN(miie), ANDY, MENG CHYE, JASMINE

today was quite fun as ya it didn't go according to the plan la

hm... but sudden plan was great actually too

hm... in the morning woke up at 10.13am

hm.. got calls from andy

he tell miie to meet him at yio chu kang at 11.30am

oh for my laziness i was turning here and there on the bed until 11am

haha in the end, tell them to go eat first

i will go sakura myself

hm.. ya having buffect(bu fue)

but its fue de lor lolx...

hm.. reach there at around 1pm due to the bus take its own sweet time

hm...started eating there le

so sad i only have 1hr to eat...T.T...

ok so started to CHIO..

first dish...salmon with lots of wasabi..

yam yam..my favourite...

did sabo andy and meng chye too..

theirface is like.....WATER WATER I NEED IT!

lolx....

after eating, all of us meet jasmine at city hall to go bugis as andy want to buy bag

hm.. he is kind of weird nowadays

haha love star so much

eg. t-shirt, watch, rist bang

haiz.. maybe its his style ba

look around at bugis juntion first then went to bugis street then back to bugis juntion again

lolx....

no stuff there ma

hm... at last got a bag and a black tie for himself at 77th street

haha got to try out the tie on myself first

hm...ya can say disgusting if your all want

hm...no comment for that lolx..

meng chye and jasmine wanna give andy a surprise by buying a cake

but kind of i spoilt it as i don't know anything

haha by the way, i am sorry!!!

went to starbucks to have some drink

treat by our birthday boy ANDY

thank you friend....

ya started to sing birthday song(silently)

haha paiseh lah

too a lot of pictures too

and sorry jasmine for delaying your time to go for tuition

as i really want that photo by today

hehe went to guidian after that look for face mask for andy in the first place

but in the end we make 'A true or dare story' at there

kind of funny and embarassing for meng chye lor

haha can't stop myself from taking the photo

hm... maybe will update the short story later ba

haha then went to buy movie ticket for

'ANGELS AND DEMONS'

hm...then slack around jiu go to cinema(6.50pm) le

*in there somethings or many things flush through my mind

it make miie remember of the time i am watching 'The Horton'

don't know is it spell like this or not..

so started to sit at the place that i sit when i am watching 'The Horton' untill the movie starts

ya kind of emo a bit

but after a while ok le*

hm... thought i will fall asleep while watching the movie as its not the type of movie i prefer

but in the end i finish the whole movie

haha its an miracle

it is really a great show

so guys if you are reading this don't missed that

when its was about 9.15pm the movie end

andy and meng chye take mrt home

and miie took bus 63 home

and now blogging

will stop here now as later still have to wake up at 5.30am

SCHOOLS!

altough today things didn't go according as i plan

but at least everyone did enjoy themselve

things when well and memoriable too

hope you will think that too birthdae boi..

haha end here..

story will update later.....

-end-

Lifeless day

2009-05-18T02:21:00.008+08:00

Today working was fine

but haha guess what!

i am late for work again

hm...2 hr and 30 mins, that means i reach my store at 11.30am

lolx....

bad habits...

must try to work out with it

hm.... this morning woke up got a message

haha i was thinking whether is it a good news or bad news

shall i go next week?

hm...

was thinking a lot today

hm.... lets see ba

as i don't want to force myself to make a decision now

hm.....

after work went to sit a while in the crew room

haha Amin and miie was eating our EMC(T.T so hungry)

haha started to talk something about the packing of fries...

but it wasn't a good news as we link to a lot of nonsensical stuff

haha guys stuff lolx.....

after eating went to find marcus at the nearby soccer court to pass him the cup(lime) while waiting for my bro to message miie to play basketball afterwards

diao.. in the end, i was so call being trick lor

hm...wait for nothing but its ok lah

lolx....

hm... actually i thought of eating with marcus but in the end decide to go Np meet peisi

hehe halfway there, changed my mind again

so went to 400plus to find weijie, perry and heng soon

as usual playing basketball again

hm....done a lot of push up as i forgot the how to shoot in the right way le

haha sound weird but its true

because too long never play basketball le

now feel so weird lor

can't even control the ball properly

hm.... after playing we went to the nearby coffeeshop to have our dinner

ya so late at 10.30pm

it is more like supper i know

lolx...chat a lot while we are at the coffeeshop

hm.. bad news!

i missed my last bus...T.T...

haiz..going to heart pain again

so take train to toa payoh then at there take bus 153 to reach serangoon

started to take cab(6 dollar)

haha although its not much but its still money

i need a lot of money now!!!

haha...

if only i can buy toto for today as its have pass 12 le

haha $8 million sia

haha but of course its just an thinking only la

lolx....

Today is andy's birthday!!!

hm.. so later maybe going to celebrate with him

hm... hope that things will go as according to my plan

although its impossible la

hm... will post about it later or tml ba

Note: hm.. can't really act normal

i am really stuck

Daisy are you there?

hm...how are you feeling now?

i don't know why am i thinking of you now

hm... i feel so unconfortable now

i can feel that i am not myself now

as i use to make jokes infront of it

but now, haiz its was like i change to a different person le

hm.. nevermind will try to change back and act normal

hm.. just let fate and nature to decisde for miie ba

船到桥头自然值。。。Sorry Peisi

Working And Emo Day

2009-05-16T23:17:00.004+08:00

Today was a great day for miie

ya in he first place

but after that it was like an Emo day for miie

hm... actually waiting something to happen

but it evantually didn't

i am just thinking too much le

was pretty sad

hm........morning went to work

ya as usual i am late again

hm....late king at Np mac lolx

hm... reach store at 9.21pm...

hm... started working hyperly

saw peisi

trying to disturb her but fail lolx....

hm.. to update there is a customer is so over

as he complain that i am slow

ya nevermind i agree with that

but when i say our cafe store have ran out of SPOON

and i request him to use the black stick

he replied" i am drinking mccafe drinks but not the normal coffee from mac.

Why can't i get a spoon?"

of course i apologise lah

then i request to give him a long spoon

ya he is still quite kaobei

but i don't care!

how can i give him a spoon when there is really none?

haha do you think drinking the epresso coffee will make him class?

YA HAHA!

LOW CLASS!!!!!

haha aunty geklang come to cafe and explain to him

although i did try to explain to him

haha stubborn people have stubborn thinking lolx....

luckily during that time i am not in a bad mood

or else he is going to get scolding from miie

lolx..sound so ba

but honestly speaking

'He Is LUCKY!"

Lolx

time passed this and that......

at around 2pm

went to break

did really wanting something to happen

but eventually nothing has happen

hm.....quite Emo

some kind of no mood to work le

maybe next week also not going to happen too

maybe must wait till next next week ba

kind of long

hm...today i didn't bring my pink colour cup to work

so thought of buying 1

but in the end i didn't

because I AM EMO!!!! lolx

hm... stupid Kelvin haiz.....

after work, went to call my friends to join them for basketball

hm... really don't know why suddenly i want go woodland

hm....

maybe just wanna that stupid feeling to be out of miie

hm... ya thats my way of releasing my rest or don't want to be emo

many things flushing through my mind

but while i am playing basketball nothing is in my mind accept wanna to score

hm....did play badly today

but at least i am able to stop thinking

hm... eat a lot just now

lolx... 4 bowl of rice

haha thought of going somewhere before i go home

but maybe not ba

as its stupid, irritating and annoying to do so although i did it once before

hm.. of course must do the right way la lolx

in train chat here and there with guo wei, huo lin and David

huolin and david alight at Khatib

so miie and guo wei alight at AMK

hm.. after separated, wait for bus

haha sleep, woke up and sleep again

lolx....

reach home blog and going to bath now

today wasn't a good day for miie

but still gonna to carry on

haha tomorrow working and might be the same as today

hm..maybe finding my bro tml after work to play basketball again lolx....

haiz......

-end-

finish my arranging of blog skins

2009-05-15T18:39:00.003+08:00

Oh hi!!!!

finally finish my changing of my blogskins and the changes that have to do....

haha but quite not satisfied with it....

hm.... but not bad for my first time ba....

lolx.....

haha sometimes must give encouragement wan ma lolx....

hm...maybe next time will learn more on this

so i can make my blog beyony my expectation

haha might sound funny as i 17 year old guy learn all this lolx.....

hm......ok

just learn all this to relax myself

will upload sound and pictures later

hm... video i think will also maybe upload for the next post....

Working tomorrow

wonder what will happen tomorrow

but no matter what i will makje it happy for every one especially someone

ok must cheer up

as tomorrow will be a better day for you...

-end here-

first blogs skins that i put myself

2009-05-15T03:53:00.002+08:00

hi im back...

this is the first blogskins that i put it own my own

and ya of course with some help from my clssmate lah..

hm....

it is not finish yet

maybe will try to finish it within this week

haha....

-END-

stuck in the past

2009-03-10T19:40:00.003+08:00

hi it was a very long day since i blog le...

hm... for past few month i have accept someone as my mei....

haha kind of she is the first person that i have ever ask......

must feel lucky and fortunate

haha.......

hm... don't know why i want to post again ba....

hm.. maybe its today something happen in the school which make me feel bad ba

haha can't blame anyone at all

because its because of using hp during english lesson ba.....

hm....so haha ms rajas confiscate my hp

haha hm... i have no hp now!!!! lolx....

during the lunch break i went to quiet place a sleep for a while

haha because im kind of moody lah lolx....

haha about 2pm went back to class for my archives lesson.....

hm.... die unable to msg for this few days...T.T...

haha my results is falling

my attitude is changing

my mind is like shit! can't even control it

what can i do?

hm..... hope that i will able to control my mind and change my attitude into a positive side

in addition i will be mature......or maybe a better guy..

Peisi i am sorry for everything

you are so easy going towards everything that i have done...

but i wonder how long can you stand it.....

lets hope everything will be ok towards us ba.....

but below....can be greedy thinking.....

---

hm..... kind of many question still stuck in my brain..

haha of course i can't split it all out lah.....

hm.... why do i have to be so stuck in my past lei....

hm... i can't be so greedy....

I CAN'T BE SO GREEDY!!!

but why am i still so greedy...

someone say my dad did bless me for something

hm... i am very lucky

but i don't feel any better in myself......

nothing really can work....

but honestly speaking i dindn't see(someone) smile infront of miie for a very long time le.....

but what can i do??????

i wish that my hope will comes truth although its not possible......

but for now just wish that person will be happy....and really got a better person

although i will be sad....

but at least you are happy and i will be happy too....

hm... shall end here.....bye...

KELVIN wish that..............................................................................................................YES!

breaking promises..

2008-11-15T16:03:00.005+08:00

hi i have finally came back to post.

hm.... i can't go anywhere now as its is very mafan

hm... i break promises again

haha that promise is what i make for myself

actually i have accidentally twisted my knee cap

haha yesterday went to the chinese doctor and he say must go back there again next week

either tuesday or wednesday...

haiz.... i hate myself so much especially my body

haiz.. why do i have weak bodies...

can't i enjoy sports that i like

next week having some matches i don't think i am going to play

why can't i have a strong body so that i am going to train and become a little stronger

my skill is like 3 letters KNS

haiz...i wish to have a stronger body

i doesn't want to leave any regrets as next year will be my last year in yishun secondary school

i want to prove to others i can make it or do it

but....my hand before...my knee cap now...

can't you give miie a chance

i have no time to be waste le

what can i do...

hm...REGRETS

do i really have to carry this word when i leave this school?

KRIS....;]

apologize again for not wishing you happy birthday on 24 october

hm....really wish you will get over all the burden and live happily and surrounded by good friends and familes..

hope i am included too.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY..

-end here-

ton

2008-10-02T06:05:00.004+08:00

hey long time didn't post le

hm.... but this time my post is actually a post that is to say sorry

hm.... you know who you are....

i am sorry to say out all those words

i should actually put myself in your shoes

its really quite sudden for someone

hey sorry for not realising you are in a diffcult state and very stress for some stuff and exam

i am just over reacting only ba

so i apologize again for my rudeness.

hope that you won't put it to heart

AND

you can say in a ugly way that i am just a flirter.

ok i agree to what everyone has to say about me

i am just one pathetic person that are selfish

and scared to loss something

hey guys somethings that is not belongs to you don't use force to snatch it away

as you will still lose it in the end

just blame me for being slow in the past ba

if its yours no matter how the thing is lost

in the end you will still get it back

no matter what good luck for your exam.

signing off........

lost of direction

2008-09-15T11:30:00.004+08:00

hey came back to blog again

haha my blog seems like dying soon

haha no new post for about one month le

haha although no one will ever care just want to share out my thoughts

hmm.... everythings seems fine to me

if that true?

maybe

haha kind of bored this few days as i was having my preliminary examination

haha i did badly for this exam

i am sure of that

hmmm....today having my social studies paper

BAD NEWS: FLANK!!!

the word maye is spell this way ba

maybe going to catch up with my combine humanities start from now

or else my O level can say....BYE BYE

my two O level subject is coming my way for about one month plus time

time files and that is what i really agree with

i wish that i am able to worried for that...

but i just feel nothing

is that a sight of giving up my career

STUDYING?

actually i am LOST

lost in direction....

hm.. ya i agree.. every single time i post i will say that again and again

LOST IN DIRECTION.. LOST IN DIRECTION.. LOST IN DIRECTION

its seems like all the same over and over again

LIFE!

YOU ARE COOL!

IS IT SO FUN TO TORTURE ME?

killing me mentally or emotionally or physically does that make a different

OVERCOME!! OVERCOME!! OVERCOME!!

why just can't i overcome it

just really hope that one day my wish will come true

if really come true

MOLTIVATION IS THE WORD

if not....

haha i will still carry on but my foot step will be very slow

for now....

there is no god to help me but me myself

just let it be the flowing of river water ba.....

KELVIN you are going to be happy and so are you too______

-end here-

cum bck aGain

2008-08-15T17:59:00.003+08:00

hi im bck

haha very long nvr blog liao le lolx

hm.... nowadaes gettin very lazy really dunno y

haiz love to play pool all days

especially hit it wif great strenght

haha lyk the noisy sound

poom..poom..poom..

lolx nice

haha quite fun

haha love to play pool wif adrian as he is a great compettitor

hm...btw many tings happenin around both miie n my frenz

hm....u ya hahah hope tad u will move on nn 4get the past n move on

cheer up ok......

btw congratulation for havin A1 for ur o level mother tongue

den abt miie haha i oso dunno wad to do

wan to slp all day long or continue to study

y is there laziness in miie

hm.......haha actualli i hav nth to say to myself

i dunno wad i wan in my life

hope tad i k hav a sign from some1

kris

hey how r u tis few months

lolx hm....still at phillippine arh....

hm.... lyk askin stupid question again

haha so long nvr say how r u le?

lolx how r u? i hope tad u will be fine n stay happy always....

long tym den finally blog

2008-07-15T09:08:00.050+08:00

hm..... hi im finally bck

tis few dae was lyk damn idiot......

i hate my life nw

hate everyting......

especially i hate myself

but i love my frenz......

thx adrian to tell miie able everyting that u hav learn frm ur own xperience

thx bro......

altot ur words nvr change my mind....

but u r makin miie more n more stubborn for wad m i doin nw

but at least i found a ans of my own

im usin the com tad is in my skl nw

coz havin lesson in lab

as i dun dare to use my com

i dun1 to use com to do someting tad i wan

i wan to use my own way to do the tings tad i wanna do nw

soorriie adrian.....

ur words is reasonable to miie

but ur words makes myself much stronger n stronger towards wad i wanna archieve

hmmm..... no more wine or beer for miie le

thx for the nit conversation too

haha feel so headache after drinkin

but tis is nt worth it

in tis world

there is nt only one solution

there is many solution to the ans

i will be much wiser than b4 tad u noe miie

hey kris....

sorry i break the promise to be online on tad day a week

hmm... sorry i wanna use com but i juz kind of scared of usin com.....

tadfs y im nt on9 for so long

kris......u wan sms miie ok

i noe its kind of expensive for u nw....

but soorriie i dunno when den i able to overcum my fear to use com.

hope u will be happy always....

kris...ingatz...

home alone

2008-06-21T20:01:00.002+08:00

hey im bck to post..

todae might be a very short post....

btw tis mornin i dnt go to wrk lolx...

coz tis mornin 5.30am den slp......lolx

so...no show...

1 more dae holidae goin to end le

dunno wad will happen in the 1st dae?

hmm... my form teacher ms rajas comform goin to nagged at miiew coz of her eng file

hmmmm...juz wish miie luck ba

btw todae stay at home the whole dae

hmm... actualli got go out de but my on9 haven touch it so...haiz

tot will be easy but in fact im wrong

haiz...i hav only done 2 assignment

left 8 more to go...sianz lah...

ok tads all goin out to meet apple ltr to eat dinner together

hmmm.... cya soon

oh lastly...

my hand has recover le

hmmm... no spint is needed le

but still gonna wait for 1 month plus den k sdo sports

.........T.T.........sobs sobs

haha nvm very fast will end de

so basketball wait for miie lolx....

-end here-

kris sorry again

dnt accompany u when ur last stay in s'pore

hope to see u soon

december.....

ingatz....

haha finally blog

2008-06-20T19:03:00.003+08:00

hey im finalli came to post le

haha kind of sian during m holidae

haha btw im nt usin my com nw......

usin my frenz manager labtop nw to post

haha tis few dae was lyk sian...

haha at the wsq food hygiene course there noe 2 frenz......

haha hantu..gigi......

lolx shld be pei ling n angela......

haha they frm toa payoh mac.....

but dunno wic mac in toa payoh

coz very complicated

lolx.....k say tad i blur lah...lolx....

haha go out wif them n adrian tis few days....

haha play pool slack everyting lah...

haha nw i was alone wif the two gals...haha

hantu... gigi....

coz adrian today go sentosa wif his frenz.....

haiz...hope tad k tink of some jokes ltr......

btw haha ytd wa fun goin out wif adrian to bugis....

he share some of his knowledge of bikes to miie

but the most memorable bike is

lolx...SUPER FOUR n SP......

haha very shio sia..n cool....

got to learn more of bike frm nw on.......

hope tad it will nt be san fen zhou ren tu......

miie

hmmm.....miiie wad is miie?

im kind of dunno wad i m nw

hmmm...my life is kind of bore.....

meaninless.....

wad k i write on my piece f blank paper leii..?

nt ever a dot k be write on my paper....

haha im nth......

but thx for my frenz let miie feel tad i m still some 1 to them.....

frenz could realli last forever

i luv to hav frenz of ur al.....

-end here-

nth but sad dae

2008-06-07T00:21:00.003+08:00

hm.....dnt realli wanna to tok abt todae tings

but k say tad im feelin terrible todae

im so tired nw

exhausted

maybe is coz dnt hav enough slp den i will feel so nt in the mood

mani tings has happen around miie tis yr

k comform wif u

all r bad

altot some is nt my prob.

but i dunno y i will feel sad

hope tad ppl havin illness will recover ASAP

lyk ppl tad has been hurt coz of the earthquake hope tad u al will be fine

den ppl wif no illness but haven comform whether is it a illness hope tad u all will be fine too

n tis might be a mistaken ting made by the doc.

hey guys....

all of u......

no matter u all wanna do someting pls tink of the person tad u all care....

coz they are the 1 sufferin more

dun giv up on them ok....

reach for the sky

n make some wishes for all of urself

the ppl tad r sufferin more

dun worried everyting will be fine

u al r nt alone

juz simply stucked there for a while

the ppl tad care of u will soon be bck or ok de

but juz tis moment u juz gonna be patient n wait

cheer up!!!!

be positive!!!!

no harm will be cause to them

god will bless them.....

zhi yao xiao yi xiao zhe ge shi jie cai hui gen mei hao.....

JIAYOU!!!!!!

-end here-

..........................long................

2008-06-03T01:54:00.003+08:00

hm..... its been damn long when i post

lolx.....juz simply dunno wad to post abt coz nth happen tis few days

haiz....im realli a borin guy

actualli i hav to admit someting wif some1

i juz realli tink tad u r rite

im a durian

no matter how hard i try or do

in the end i will still hurt my frenz around miie

i juz k't do tings tad is rite

i hate myself

y do god wanna to hav tis kind of ppl in their world

i likes my frenz a lot....

but i juz dunno y i always make my frenz so sad

tads a rite choice u choose

hmmmmm......some1 tad i noetis is a reminder

dun get too close to KELVIN CHIN SEOW KEONG

he might hurt u very deeply

rulth everyting i will say

instead of helpin a frenz to solve the problem

but he juz makin it worst

safest ting to do i tink will be keep a dist. wif miie

dun ever trust miie as i dun realli trust ppl too

dun tel miie secret coz i might spread it.....

so guys be carefull!!!!!

kris thx for bein my fren

and sometyms frenz hav to be separated

but hope tad we k keep in touch wif each other

6 days to go....

so after tis days

as promise friday will be ours only

ok.....cya

ingatz.....tecee.....

poem

2008-05-30T00:45:00.002+08:00

FOR MY GREAT AND LOVEABLE FRIEND

We meet upon the internet
My heart you did not have yet
That day, I know you quite well, and you also know me
A special friendship of trust, care and honesty

I sit and wait each day
For the song my heart will soon play
It seems so silly on just a machine
How someone can teach you…became your everything
I
Go through life would be so sad and blue
Imagine what life without that special you
To be my friend and see so deep
I now know why I don’t get much sleep

I know we live so far away
Through the internet we are like castaways
One day I am sure will meet my good friend
But for now I say to you “ciao” and much “care” I’ll send

thx for the poem i like it very much

hope that we will be meetin 1 day

kris thx 4 tad im touched

friends for ever!!!!

ingatz....

3 days 2 nite camp

2008-05-29T22:42:00.002+08:00

hi im bck

its had been 3 days when i last post

haha actualli i went for camp

health and fitness camp(taf camp)

dun be surprise im nt the taf pupils

haha im the instructor there lolx....

durin the camp there r some quarrel

some unhappy tings

some sad tings happen

but there is still fun, happiness n great tym there

especialli at nite

kind of miss camp nw

haha Charlie rokz.....

DAY 1

hm... juz woke up n found out tad im late for the meetin tym of instructor

haha so quickly get changed n luckily i prepare my stuff the other dae le

lolx so quickly take cab T.T heart pain

haha reach the hav our debrief

so when 1pm

all the pupils hav reach le

so check their bag n c got any snacks

lolx realli foound some

yeah

snacks 4 the instructor at nite lolx....

so when they after puttin their bag in their balk

check there weight

after tad we went to west coast to hav our games'

lolx...

4 games were played

n my the refree for the frisbee

haha very fierce tad tym haiz

coz hav to xplain to them agan n again

haiz... altot i m angry but knt show to them

haiz nvm but some was very fun

haha n funni too

afer the game they hav some free hour to play at the west coast

n nws the tym for the instructor to battle wif each other 4 frisbee

lolx.....

altot its a short game but it was lyk damn......... fun de lor lolx

coz im able to spend tym wif my frenz there

lolx when tyum is up

all of us went bck to skl n get ready for our dinner

n i was lyk diao...when i heard tad we nid to make a cheer 4 each group

lolx....as a group leader of charlie

if i dun tink of some cheers do u tink they will cooperate

as u tink it is juz the 1st day of the camp only

lolx....luckily someting get into my mind

or else i oso dunno wad to do

hm...after dinner they hav their min games haha

i help up some too lah

lolx.....

den whenn 11pm

finally our tym to bath

haha instructor was lyk diao.......

SMELLY de lor...

lolx

den abt 2 plus call for delivery of mac

haha so shio

able to eat together

after eatiin straight go to slp

haha i noe its pig lor

DAY2

hm.... woke up at 6pm

oh i was lyk slp 4 2 hour only lor

haiz.....

so get bath wif cold water....

wu.......

haha damn cold

so go to parade square to have our 5BX

it is actually some exercise

haha den get our breakfast

btw there is a boii frm another group tad realli piss miie off

i noe i shldnt be angry

i so kol scolded him as he scolded bad words....

i dun mind if u scold miie

but dun scold my mum lah

fuck idiot!!!!

dun cum to my front n say do i noe u again ok...

den after breakfast we have our instructor debrief

n the pupils havin their nutrition tok

lolx.....so good

4got to say we have our instructor uni. ytd(`1st day)

haha....

after their nutrition tok went to tampanies GIANT

haha coz we hav some games there wic wanna them to be runnin up n down

haha we very liao lor coz in addition u al hav enjoy the air con rite

lolx....

haha actualli we shldnt giv them some clues for the game de

haha u noe...

i did giv them some clues....

lolx....

altot i did so but charlie still lost

so only k get $20 for breakfast tml wic they hav to use it wisely

lolx.....

but also k c tha their face tad they were a little sad

so go there tel them to tink positive

as at least they stil hve money to eat breakfast

n in addition the tings in giant oso quite cheap too

as i k conform wif them they stil k eat until very full de

lolx

great news

we actually hav top share food wif our group de

but in the end we still got $30 dollars

lolx.... so gud rite

haha after throwin all the stuff in the trolley

haha we also throw some sweets n chocolate for the instructor lah

lolx....

see bein instructor hav advantage de lolx

hm... it seems lyk we hav over charge for our stuff

hm..... i bet its 50 plus le ba

btw thx moreen for the treat of $20

lolx....

haha den went bck to skl to have lunch den off we go to skl to hav our lunch

hmmm......n i hav some quarrel wif mingwei

hmm.... i scold him too

luckily the student dnt heard tad

hm... as i saay image...lolx

i noe i dun hav

hm.... sfter havin our dinner

n off we go to southern ridge wic was near to vivocity

haha i was quite dissappointed for moreen n marcus as their plan crashed when we jus started to walk juz coz of the rain

hm....cheer up u guys

so we when to the nearers shelter to hav some easy game

haiz.... den continue to walk 4 a while

alpha n bravo take bus 1st go bck skl

den left charlie n delta

haiz...hav to entertain them again

haha make them to say some cheer of their group

den tok jokes n crap too lolx]

haiz when abt 3omin ltr after the 1st bus was gone

the 2nd bus finalli came

haiz.... it was so long lor

n i have to shout hhhere n there juz to entertain them

hm.... haha the bus was so quiet as i bet they were tirwed even the instructor

haha everybody was lyk pig lolx....

abt 6.30pm we finalli reach skl

haix.... so tired lor

hm..... after havin their wash up

everybody examble( dunno how to spell) at the cafeterian to hav their dinner

after eattin yeah......

our mini games started again

haha tis tym is my favourite

GANGSTER PARADISE

wic mean tad the instructor hav to run n all the students hav to catch us

haha i was caught 4 tyms

n i escape 4 tyms too lolx......

haha but very tirin to run here n there

hm... after tad supper

knt eat anymore coz i ate 3 box of chicken rice durin dinner

lolx....pig i noe

den as per normal at 11pm

the students went bck to slp instuctor get to bath all tad

haha tell u someting

i hav to pertro frm 4am to 5.30am

but u noe wad?

lolx

i over overslept

DAY3

haha so woke up at 6 plus get my wash up

den go do 5 BX wif them

haha eat breakfast after tad

hm..... as after breakfast

haha my favourite again

lolx.....relay!!!!!

lolx i noe im sounds lyk a devil here

haha btw i did run wif them too

haha but nt all 10 rounds lah

haha as i nid to encourage them to runb too ma

haha as in the end charlie won!!!!!!lolx

U AL ROKZ MAN!!!!!!

haha hm.....

i bet tad after runnin u al nid some shower rite?

so hehe

MASS ATTACK!!!!

wic we nid water bomb to play wif it

i was damn funni seein them to play tad game

haha so in the end BRAVO won

haha intructor turn to play again....

as we win 2 yrs in a roll

so tis year will hav to get 1 more yr for tad'

haha when the game start

everybody was throwin bombs here n there

hm.... i almost got the flag lor

but haiz in the end still get caught by the bomb

nvm

haha but in the end we still win

so tad means..........................................

3 yrs in a roll lolx......

INTRUCTOR RULZ!!!!!!

lolx.....

when the tings is quite n so it was prize presentation

hm.... did get some foto too

haha goin to miss ur al Charlie!!!!!

T.T......lolx

after all tings have done debrief again haha...

but tis is the last 1 le

sob sob.....

haha goin to rmb tis 4 life

abt 1 plus

marcus moreen chengjiun n miie went to np foot court eat lunch

haha we slack till 3 plus den marcus n moreen go 1st

den left miie n cheng jiun

haha we slack in mac chat here n there

haha i did fall aslp too

btw spkin of mac

haiz.... i k't go 4 the crew outin for tad day coz too tired le

at 5pm cheng jiun hav to went home to prepare 4 her lifeguard ting

n i oso went home slp le...

(lolx.... tis is my day in camp hope ur al enjoy readin it)

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shichuan earthquake

2008-05-25T19:56:00.003+08:00

hi came bck to post....

when the shi chuang earthquake juz started i was lyk still doin my exam wifout knowin wad hav really happen

i admit it tad i dnt realli noe when did the earthquake start
hm.....juz found out tis few days

tot tad it is nt realli serious att all in the 1st place

till nw was lyk so surprise to saw the charity show or wad to raised money 4 the shichuan villagers

den nw still watchin the channel 8 show nw

actualli i dunno whether how mani ppl were buried till death
but i bet its a big amount ba
actualli all tis ppls r wu gu de
but juz dunno y god wanna play wif their life

hey im nt blamin u
if u realli hate tis world juz ignore it
y do u wanna make so mani ppl suffered

ok i noe if i say tad is so kol disrespectful
but tis is too much
mani children in shi chuang lost their parents becoz of tis incident
n nw they hav to be gu er

live is nt an matter of game to let u loss it so easily

hm.....btw im sory 4 the ppl tad believe in god n nw im so kol of insultin them
n u k kol miie crazy as to scold n blame the god for the all tis precaution
u k scold miie if ur al want
hm..... i simply hate 2008
i hate it]
wad other surprise r u goin to giv us?
bad tings r brought to tis yr over n over again
when will tis stop

hm.... ok shall end here
or else dunno wad will happen nw.....

n i juz found out tad at shi chuang there is a lady die in a very weird way as her bck was facin the top when the ppl turn her body n found out tad there is a 3 months old baby under her....there was no wound or even a cut on the baby......n there was a hp under her too n there r some words in it as it was written in a way tad i was so touched

it was written in chinese( baby if u r still alive, i juz wanna u to noe tad I LOVE YOU)

hooray 4 the mothers.......

pic. of shi chuang after the earthquake
hope u all will help them too

as k say tad we r much luckier dan them

n hope tis surprise will be the last 1

helpline:1900 112 5121($6), 1900 112 5122($18), 1900 112 5123($50), 62591233($50 an above)

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thx kris

2008-05-23T00:59:00.003+08:00

actualli i dun hav anyting to tok abt de in the 1st place

but nw i hav

actualli im kind of moody todae

but thx to u kris

u hav brighten up my life juz nw

thx 4 chattin wif miie

hm.... u oso hav great foto

nice to meet u

altot we only noe each other for abt 3daes

but thx u very much

great to hav u as my frenz

and

WELCOME TO SINGAPORE!!!!

hope to chat wif u at msn again......

frenz 4ever!!!!

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tym at Singapore poly

2008-05-21T22:56:00.005+08:00

hm...

nw here to post hm...

haha my class was lyk so lucky to go to a course tad is held for 2days at S'poe poly

lolx actualli we did hav fun there

1st day(ytd).....

as usual im late 4 skl

lolx...altot tad is so
i dnt get any offence slip
lolx so lucky

hm.... juz reach skl n gather at canteen 4 30mins

haha n bused we go to s'pore poly

hm.... in bus play psp(frm marcus)

lolx....goin to buy 1 soon ba

when we arrived

haha the course was all abt the way of reusin the water

lolx....they all wanted us to label wic n wic

is tapped water, sea water n distilled water

haha mani process was done

n ya the result 4 each process r different frm the other groups too

lolx....

hm... haha we only get 1 ans rite lolx..

tad will be distilled water

lolx... tads nt bad coz tink positive if we r thristy in future n wanna to drink water

we will noe wic is clean n save to drink

lolx.... oh....so cold...
lolx....i noe its lame

hm.... went to another room n nw tok abt the architecture ting

haha my head was lyk a bu dao wuan

haha k say i almost fall aslp

altot i was lyk almost fall aslp but i lyk bein a architect

haha coz i lyk the design of some bangolo(dunno how to spell)
haha i lyk to live in a bangolo in future

tad is design by miie

all tot i still dunno wad to chose 4 my course

but i tink it will probability be business or architecture ba

haha hu wanna to hav a designer 4 the house find miie ok

lolx...but if the house collasped im sory to say tad ok

lolx...jkin jkin

so tis tok carry on till abt 1pm

so we were expect to formed into groups as we muz make a house of our own
haha our imginin of the house for singapore idiol was lyk so nice lor

lolx...but durin tad moment i was wonderin the design we make up

would it be the same tad is in our mind

lolx...dun care lah juz do 1st

haha we spent all our money of buyin the staff to build the house

hm.... we dnt realli start on anyting on the 1st dae

as it was turnin to be 4.30pm le

so we havew to pack up our tings n go

hm....

2nd day of the course(today)

im late 4 skl again
haha u k say tad i dnt we to skl today

coz when i woke up it was lyk 10.30am

haha so quickly get changed

n den take cab to s'poe poly

be4 tad have to c my bro(elder) to c doc

as i tink he hav sprain his leg n k't realli walk properly

hm... so after sein him to the so kol chinese clinic

hm... continue my journey to SP

haha it took miie abt 20mins to reach there
was lyk quite surprise coz my house to there was lyk a end to another end lor

haha so fast...lolx

but heart pain too
coz it took miie $15

nvm spent tis money to hav fun

i tink is worth it

btw when i walk in the class

haha everybody was lyk so surprise
lolx....

nvm tis is nt the 1st tym i giv them so much shock le

haha they will get use to it de

hm... den continue on our wrk piece

hm...haha i was lyk foolin around went they r doin lor

lolx....

haha they wated to make a dog

haha but instead i make rino.....

lolx....

it was damn weird to hav a rino in a idiol house

lolx....

as i expected
our design was lyk haha kns

nvm it is juz only a experience 4 us

hhaha altot we lost

but i feel lyk we r the winner

no body is the loser

coz durin tis two days every1 was so happiie

haha k say we realli hav fun there
hm....the way i xpressin the place was lyk so borin

but we realli hav fun at singapore poly]

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pic. was take on the 1st day of the course

4n3 rockz!!!!..

enjoyable day

2008-05-19T20:57:00.005+08:00

hey came bck to post again

hm paiseh ytd play until too late le so very tired le

haha so prefer to be pig

haha.....u noe wad tad mean ba

hm... ok tis post is 4 ytd

SUNDAY 18/05/08

woke up at abt 12nn plus

wah... it was lyk damn tired lor.....

hm..... hav my wash up n den go eat my lunch

haha slack at home till 1pm

den get change as ready to go out coz its andy's birthdae

so decide to celebrate 4 him

at 1st we were tinkin of goin to causeway there walk den go cut cake

(made by jasmine dunno k eat or nt lor)

lolx...jkin jkin

actalli wanna try her cake de but in the end dnt get a chance coz there is a change of plan

haha actualli we shld miit at yishun at 2pm de

u noe wad? lolx

1.30pm i still at home..lolx

haha but luckily they change their plan

haha no choice i nid tym to change 4 bein late

lolx....

they decide to go escape...

yeah!!!!

after so mani stress given by the exam finalli k relax le

haha.....

goin escape tad is oso mean tad i k stay at home relax longer

haha....

abt 2.30pm

i took bus to paya lebar to giv bck someting to my gan(dry) ma n dia

haha but when go there only saw gan(dry) dia aso juz passed to him

n chat chat very little while

haha walk to the mrt station

haha its abt 3pm when i took the train

tot tad i tad im goin to be the 1st to reach there but i was wrong

tis is the 1st tym i saw a cab tad nids 20min to reach pasir ris

n the startin poin was yishun

k imagine tad

haha in the end i reach there 15mins afterr the reached

haha lame annoucement

if ual wanna go escape

better the most 1 person to have a singtel line

coz in tis way u r able to reduce the amount of $17.70 if u r 13 n above

haha very cheap lolx...

1st stop..

miie andy marcus n jasmine went to play someting kol flippers or anyting de

hhaha niz it was ok

after tad haha my favourite...

HAUNTED!!!

lolx...

go in was lyk a little use to the place le

but u noe wad jasmine n andy was lyk damn scared lor

lolx....i walk 1st den after tad im the 3rd 1

nt tad im scared lor

but it was marcus walk faster n faster

den jasmine was lyk gettin very scared le

so she walk infront of miie

den she keep on stoppin leadin us to be gettin slower n slower

den i hav to keep on pushin her so tad we r able to catch up wif marcus

haha when finis haha jasmine dnt cry

haha expect she will cry de

coz as i rmb somebody did..lox.....before

i tink u noe hu u r ba...lolx

nxt stop rainbow

haha quite funn too as so k c the great scene of pasir ris

after tad....

haha went to play go kart

as usual it is still very long quene

haha so marcus n andy stay there n quene 4 us

so miie and jasmine went to buy bubble tea

haha 1st tym saw tad drinks sell at escape so cheap lor

$2....

n the drinks was wah..............

KNS...the pearl was lyk as hard as a rock lor

hm... cheap tings is lyk tad 1 ba

we k't expect much frm it ba

hm....bck to the go kart

hey we took 1hr plus to play a 5mins game lor

haha btw it was worth it coz we r able to compete wif each other

haha was lyk fun lor haha

but tis is a warnig tad go kart k be dangerous too

as we saw a gal fainted juz becoz somebody bang to the bck of her so kol car

n she was knock her head n fainted

lolx....much be careful nxt tym if u all playin tis

lolx...ihav becum a nanny le...lolx

so nxt stop inverter

haha was lyk fun too coz we were put upside down

i bet our brain was full of blood at that tym ba

hm..nxt stop rthey went to play super man n i went to quene 4 the pirateship

haha the reason 4 miie nt playin tad is becoz i will get dizzy by turnin so mani wrong de

hm.... after all tis game we play here n ther till abt 7.30pm

haha we play our last game GO KART

lolx...

abt 8pm we start our competition again

1st round haha i over take marcus

den actualli im the 1st de

juz becoz of andy slide too much n was stuck 1/2 way

all of us hav to stop

den he was lyk so cheat lor

after his car ok le juz go

wah so marcus n i was tryin to catch up of him

but he was lyk so cheat keep on bangin on us

so nw left miie n marcus compete wif each other so to get 2nd in place

haha went the last round

he slide too much den bang to the side

haha i was lyk fuckq

he even bock my way lor

haha in the end many ppl overtake us altt we r so near to the finishin line

lolx.... the moz funni was the last part

lolx....jasmine step the accerator all the way

den was oso tryin her 1st slide

lolx... in the end she bang to us

lolx....it was lyk so funni for 3 idiots to bang together lor

lolx.....

baichi 3 ren zhu....lolx

hm... after tad marcus went home 1st as her parents was rushin him to get home

so left miie jasmine n andy eatin at the food court there

in the first place e r actualli decide to go to wang quan de pub de

but dnt go coz it was too late le

so 3 of us walk to pasir ris mrt station

betwwen it there was a lot of jokes n laughter

after seein to tampinis to take bus home

den i went home myself

lolx.... was lyk fun lor ytd

HAPPIIE BELATED BIRTHDAE TO ANDY...

MONDAY 19/05/08

today woke up at 6.30am

hm... wrkin today coz vesake day tad means double pay 4 miie lolx......

hm...shld wrk at 8am de

haha as usual im late again

late 4 45mins

so lyson tell miie to punch in at 9am

T.T.....my 8 dollars...bye bye

lolx.....

so started wrkin at 9am

i be my so kol sis runner

everyting was fine when juz a stupid guy shout at us sayin tad we dnt giv him respect

hey hello u r the 1 siao siao dun wan tok properli

so do u tink u k blame us

siao lei luckily im nt the 1 to serve u

as my temper nwadaes nt realli gud actualli

if u make miie fears i k bet wif u tad i k make ur life more n more tough

as u told miie b4 ur life is tough

so if u 1 i k make it worst 4 u

hm... guys u might tink tad i tok big here

but i bet if u was there u will scold him oreadi

hey stupid guy dun u dare cum bck again

so wei lun take over sriram n he was lyk smillin smillin n smillin

lolx...u have got temper i will say

abt 12.06pm i took my break

after eatin still hav tym so try to fix 4 fone by knockin it

lolx...i noe im juz makin it worst only

but haiz no other choice

my fone goin to retire soon le ba

haha puch in at abt 12.41pm

lolx...i noe im late lolx.....

so carry on to be my sis(jessiling) runner until she goes home at 3pm

when 4pm came i punch out n went to crew room to chat wif bee, fiona n my sis

haha havin alot of cmplaint of some crew

haiz....tis is normal de ba

at abt 5.30pm they gone

i carry on my slackin at NP n mac untill 6plus

den bused home

n nw here to post

(gud news...im appointed to be the TAF camp instructor)

(bad news.. my appointment tym some how crush wif the taf camp ting so might hav to pull my appointment bck abit)

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went bck to wrk

2008-05-18T00:11:00.002+08:00

todae k say is a happiie n tiring dae 4 miie

coz finalli went bck to wrk le

yes!

lolx....hm....

kind of nt use to it in the 1st place

as i lyk to run here and there to take products

but nw while takin someting hav to tink twiceli

as im still injured so must be careful too

hm... my hand did pain 4 a while

but after tad ok le ba

lolx.... hope tad i dnt worst it

lolx.....chio!!!!!

hm.... todae juz went in

haha as usual im late again

late by 1 min

lolx....

after abt 8.30am cheng juin punch in

haha start my suanin n disturbin again

luckily adrian dnt cum todae

or else cheng juin will be very fears till her blood vessel explode

lolx....

hm... muz get use to it arh...

btw seakin of adrian todae he no show

haha kol him oso dnt ans the fone

maybe fall sick ba or have some other reason ba

hm... so shio 2dae 11am went to have my break

after finis eatin it was 11.15am

haha a crew(very scary and talkative 1) came to the crew room n hav his break

lolx....so i giv him my sit den took my bag n ran in to mang. room

lolx... listen to music or slp anyting juz dunn1 go in the crew room

coz u k't imagine u will be lyk if he keep askin u question

lolx....

so its gud to avoid him dan to scold him ba...

lolx....

wrk till 2pm punch out so slack at crew room a while jiu help liqin collect tingsa frm YS mac

lolx.....4 exchange will be a middle size ice lemon tea

haha i dun 1they pay miie bck money coz i got bus concession

lolx... take how mani tym bus oso free de

hm... it worth it...

after collectin the ting wewnt bck to crew room n slp 4 a while

in addition have to wait 4 my bro to cllect his jersey

den off light

cheng juin went in to take her bag coz she have punch out le

lolx... i did nth

i juz sit there n rest

she say i scared her le

lolx.... y dun u say ur dan very small

juz chat 4 a while den she went home

i was lyk so sian at mac till 6pm plus

in the end i found out tad my bro dun nid the jersey le

fuckQ...make miie wait so long

nxt tym take urself

wah... dnt even inform miie

muz wait till i kol him...

haiz... nvm ba

brothers......

juz have to say tad i born in the wrong family lor

lolx...jkin jkin

so den take bus to chong pang to get my contact lens

as the lens tad i m wearin todae has oreadi expired le

so muz go get a pair of new one

hm... went home n nw here to post

btw todae juz found out tad im might nt be able to join the taf camp instructor

haiz... in the 1st place say i k join

after tad say if my hand has recover den let miie join

lastly say becoz of the previous sports n arts carnival

i8 dnt wrong 4 the scorin

ok i admit i did done wrong 4 the scorin

but do u al teachers have to giv so mani excuses ma

ok if u al insist miie of joinin

i fine wif it

juz dun giv miie all kinds of damn reason k le

as i oso dun giv a damn to the taf camp le

happy tym at the taf camp!!!!!

-end here-

happiie dae ba..lolx

2008-05-17T00:10:00.003+08:00

hey came bck post again

lolx...

btw 2dae i overslept so dnt get a chance to take bck my yeye grave

hm... ok ba k sae tad i m nt a gud grandson ba

hm... woke up at at 12+

den slack at home a while jiu went out

as i have to collect my homwrk 4 todae

when i reach yishun interchange

i took 800 to skl

half way reachin skl saw wei yang jasmine and kin fung runnin to chase the bus

lolx... it was simply funni to see the, runnin lyk mad dog

lolx..no offence

after collectin my homwrk frm i chun

miie wei yang n kinfung went to 717 under blk to wait 4 jasmine

as we decide to slack at YS mac 4 the whole dae

but in the end we dnt coz allen invite us to join him n wang quan to go safra play pool

hm.. k sae its quite a tym when i play pool le

k sae is 3 months le ba

haha when we reach there book 2 tables and started playin

lolx....first play wif wang quan

lolx... lost to him as he play tis game often lor

especially in his bar

haha n finally get some idea of how to control the direction of the ball le

lolx... got skill liao nw

so any1 wanna challenge giv miie a kol or tagged miie

lolx....BHB

hm... play play k lah

lolx....jio miie out nxt tym if u al wanna play pool ok

lolx... coz still have lot of tings to learn

lolx...as some i won it fair and square

some haha k say is by luck lah

lolx.... play till 7.30pm

we walk bck to NP

to look 4 andy's present

hm... haha we decide to buy him a ........

lolx knt tell 1st lolx

k sae is the normal tings tad teenager will buy de lah

after tad went to sport link to buy my wrist band

as tml goin bck to wrk le

lolx....

kind of miss the aunty there

coz they r funni lolx.....especially gek lang aunty

hope tad the wrk will nt worsen my hand ok

lolx....

after tad i c wei yang home so kol home ba

lolx...

den took bus to my aunt house to collect someting stupid

diao.... my younger bro baby=_=lll

its a snowman actualli

haiz.. lame sia

so take bus go home

hm... change le a lot of bus den reach home

T.T.....lolx

-end here-

i hav fun today

thx frenz

im hurt

2008-05-15T23:00:00.002+08:00

hey came bck to post aqn

hm... 4days realli happen so fast

as 4th dae or u k say 2dae is the dae to send my yeye away

hm.... alot of tears were drop 2dae

but nt miie lah

altot im sad but juz simply dunno y tad i dun feel lyk cryin

hm...16 yrs old le ba

so simply tink more instead of cryin ba

4 nw

i k only have my 4 luv 1 in my heart

refresh my memories of them

altot its nt a way of lettin go

but at least if away 4 miie 2 rmb them ba

startin to be emo soon

hm... but i tink i will recover frm it de

as emo to miie let miie feels btr

im sorry frenz for nt sharin my prob. wif ur al

coz i wanna to have greater strength

strength to control myself

strength to overcum the prob.

strength for everyting

i m juz a piece of blank paper nw

unable to take care f myself totalli yet

so i wanna someting gud

strong

great strength

to be written inside

i wanna to be successful

wanna be some1

tad i realli wanna be

its sound a little too greedy n a little impossible

but try is he word i will say

my aim 4 tis is because tad

i dunn wanna my luv 1 to be so tired

i wanna them to feel xinfu

feel the joy tad i will giv them...

hm...

tink lyk i m tokin a lot of crap nw

any1 after readin tis post feel tad very nt happiie wif wad i m sayin nw or nt true

its up to u

coz tis is miie

only miie tad wanna to fulfill my dream

n i will noe myself btr

tml goin to take my yeye grave le

so hope my mood will be btr

by the help of my cousins

thx...

-end here-

long sad dae

2008-05-13T17:13:00.002+08:00

hm.. its been a while when i last post ba

hm....on mother's dae able to giv out tings to my mum n gan(dry) ma

lolx

as i luv the way of givin but sometyms takin too

but i prefer givin

coz sometyms when i get bck someting by return

it mostly will be bad

4 example ytd mornin at abt 2.22am in the mornin

my grandpa passed away

it was a sad ting

as it happens on 12/5/2008

hm... it seems lyk no. 12 is my unlucky no.

hm.... mani tings happen becoz of 12

lyk when i was 12

my dad went in to hospital n nvr came out again

haiz... its part of our life ba

dunno y b4 i dnt tink so much when ppl juz left miie so sudden

my dad...

my grandma....

hm... bt nw i kind of tink a lot

i was wonderin do ppl tad u care

u luv

u most obey

have to passed away or leave u ma

it was so so....

its hard to imagine tad

do ppl have to die

hm... maybe its away to puttin down someting ba

all of us may hav to face tis ba

i tinkk dyin its not tad scarin

but the most scary part is

when the tym tad u hav to accept tad u r dyin soon

tis is the most scary tings

dun u all tink so????

tryin my best nt to be emo le

but i was wonderin how long k i stay into tis gud and happiie shape

but juz let the water flow as tym will pass

hm.. goin to my aunt house soon

as i still hav 2daes to c my yeye le

so im nt goin to waste tym le

its almost tym le

bye

-end here-

no title

2008-05-10T22:06:00.003+08:00

hey juz uploaded a funni sound

hav a try in listenin it

u may felt tad too

as ytd knt slp dunno is it becoz of the white chocolate mocha i drink ytd

so tis mornin 8am den slp

woke up at abt 3pm

get ready for myself jiu went out le

reach yishun at abt 5.30pm

so mit kahee go cut hair

and shit we muz wait 4 1hr sia

haiz nvm so kahee go n hav his dinner wif his church frenz

n miie sit at the barber(dunno how to spell) wait 4 my turn

haiz when i finis cuttin my hair

juz nice it kahee turn

after tad he went home den i went to Np to get my tings

den jiu go home le

today it seems lyk a borin dae to miie again

n my mood started to turn worst again

hm.. tml will be mother's day

hope tad this dae will change my mood

my life is so meaning less nw

feel lyk quitin skl

as studies juz will make miie drop deeper

into the sadness

good dae become sad dae

2008-05-10T01:54:00.004+08:00

hey hey

haha hooray for the ppl tad hav finis ur al exam le

its been a tough day durin tis few days

but tads ok le

coz its over

no more stress k relax le

btw no offence for ppl still doin exam

it will be over as fast as juz a blink of eyes and its over le

gud luck!!!

hm... ytd fall aslp while using com.

den todae woke up at 12.50pm++

almost 1 lah

haha mittin marcus and mingwei at 2pm de

lolx...

tink goin to be late again

so i reach yishun at abt 2.30pm

den decide to go raffles city to hav a look whether there is anyting good to buy

haha but in fact there nth

so sian

jaejae and chao shen(smelly in hokkien)

reach at abt 3.30pm

den went home on their self coz they find its borin goin out wif us

haha i find its a little true

hey paiseh arh

so miie marcus n mingwei continue our job at bugis

haha 3 idiots decide to walk to bugis

haha in the end we get lost

instead of goin to bugis

haha we find ourself wlkin to the south but nt north

so we ended up at chinatown

haiz... we r juz a banch of lu chi(road idiot)

lolx...no offence but dun u tink its true

when we reach chinatown juz take mrt as we r sweatin le

so knt tahan le

it was damn hot lor...lolx

reach bugis at abt 5.30pm

went in to bugis junction and saw a lot of formal shirt in MESSY(a shop name)

den found out tad there the super shirt has extend it store

so any1 interested in buyin superman shirt

pls go to to the 1st storey of bugis junction

and it is located at juz beside the mac

lolx...

i feel lyk im advertisin for them sia

so went to bugis street

and it was so coincedence to c my x wrkin mates(maya)

haha and she ask 4 my no.

n diao... i was lyk 4get liao lor

even press wrong no. too

haha we was lyk standin half way blockin ppl frm walkin

lolx...

after a while went bck to np to get my watch tad i hav tink of buyin it long tym

and also bought my present too le

haiz... spend a lot of mani today again

at 7pm marcus n mingwei went home

but i was goin to novena there have a visit on my grandpa

at TTSH

as my aunty sae his condition has get worse

haiz....good mood be come no mood le

stay at there till 11pm++

den went home

hm.. juz wanna hope tad u will be fine ok!!!

-end here-

end of exam

2008-05-08T22:17:00.003+08:00

haha

today last paper so happiie

dun hav to be stress le

k finalli relax le

but altot monday the 1 nt realli exam

but is eng oral

haiz have to speck my chinese cum english cum siguage le

lolx...

my eng was lyk rubbish as my frenz tel miie to tok u chinese

as they say tad dey kt understand a word if i speak in eng.

wah... thats quite an insult

hm..

nvm use to it

btw today A math haiz knt get full marks le

coz 2 question i skiped

diao... i lose 6 marks

knt get A1 le

so after tad when YS mac to mit

marcus, i chun, mingwei n kahee

lolx...too bad my boss laogay nt there

log base 10=lg
haahaa i got it frm him while learnin logarithium

lolx... thx miss tan for teachin me tis chapter

LOLx....

after eatin my so kol brunch

went to i chun house there to collect his guitar

as we r goin to marcus house so he k learn some teachnide frm him

while they r practicin at the roof top i use com.

sian no movie no nth in marcus lap top

haha luckily ka hee saw my msg

so he brought some movie tad is kept in his thumb drive

haha watch the jumper, the vintage(hafe way fell aslp)

abt 4.30pm++ i chun when home

n i k finalli use the com lle

watch dunno wad movie is tad

but its jack lee movie

abt 7pm

all of us went home

haiz... boring dae again

but kind of relax nw...

lolx....

hm 3 more days to go...

(mother's day)

SO TML GOIN OUT TO BUY PRESENT

HOPE K C SOMETING TAD MY MUM N GAN(DRY) MA WILL LYK

LOLX....

-end here-

A math....

2008-05-08T02:01:00.003+08:00

hey again

and so late again

hm.. juz k't slp as maybe slp too much tis afternoon le ba

btw u noe wad

today im late again

woke up at 7am

wah.. haha nvm take frm my mum money to take cab

haha when reach skl its abt 7.45am

lolx..

hm.. so went office and prepare for my chemistry

haiz the paper was easy

but...

i juz dunno wad to fill it the rite ans

haiz conform die again lor

after finis the paper

dnt check

dnt fill in the ans tad i skip

juz slp

haha i was lyk pig lor

after the exam i went to YS mac there to take my breakfast

as dnt eat todae coz rushin to get to skl ASAP

after tad as usual again went home to slp again

haha woke u at 2pm plus

use com. den went out to study again

haha altot im lazy but i oso hardwrkin de lor

BHB...but in the end exam still will fail de

as i dnt wrk hard enough

lolx...

but i find tad it quite true

reach there at abt 5.30pm++

n saw so mani ppl

altot tml is last paper

and k c tad A math and POA very hard but its a little too over le ba

haha so jiayou for ur al exam

muz get A1 ok

miie too wil try hard to score full marks tml de ok

haha i noe lyk tad very greedy

but i juz wanna prove tad my A math is strong

k feel tad little too proud

haha no lah u k also kol tad its my xpectation for MATH

ok lah went home at abt 10.30pm++

and den nw came to post my boring dae

lolx.........

btw if anyone have any high paid job pls introduce to miie by givin miie a tagged

ok thx

HEY GD LUCK FOR THE PPL I NOE

AND PASS UR EXAM WIF FLYING COLOURS

worse dae

2008-05-07T15:17:00.002+08:00

hm.. hi dnt post ytd coz too tired le

btw ytd paper was lyk damn difficult lor

hey 1st 2 question of E math hav oreadi make miie streess up le

haiz after exam went to NP mac to eat n study a lone T.T

haha reason is 2.50pm goin to go for appointment

when reach there

take out the cast usin a machine or wad ting de

haha was lyk so annoyin the sound

den go quene up for my X ray check

after n finalli c tad doc again

haiz...

jusz wanna wish that nt goin to see him again coz

every tym c him my pocket will hav a big hole in it

total $380 le

haiz...

heartpain sia

he say my bone is recoverin le but still haven totalli recover

i was lykl diao...

always say tis i oso noe how to be doc. le

so he advice miie to come bck 3 wks ltr

but dun have to put cast

juz only a spint

wic k be take out de

haiz so i was lyk diao...

after tad went to c my grandpa

n he was lyk gettin worse when the last tym i visit him

he even hav a fever tad tym

hope he will recover soon

but abt 6 pm went bck to yishun

ok i admit im nt a good grandson

go there a while only jiu hav to go

reach yishun at 6.30pm++

saw a lot of ppl there

so kind of study a little for my chem.

when abt 8 plus

mingwei blaja ask nugget

haha as i was block n hungry of coz will have to eat more

its kind of greedi i noe

went home at 9 plus

den go slp le

borin dae again

but juz wanna wish tad ny grandpa will recover soon

hm.. postive tots

HE WILL RECOVER!!!

LOLx...

ltr den post for todae

-end here-

tired.....geo. i tink oso knt make it

2008-05-05T23:38:00.002+08:00

hi noe wad

i dnt stay over the nite to study geo

juz study till 3am only den knt take it le

haha in addition today late for skl again

hm...

it seems lyk examination period i conform will be late de

hm.. after finis my geo. paper

and i tink will fail de lor

went bck class dnt use the extra half an hour to do my geo

coz k predict de

cant do means cant do

den stay in class for a while

jiu go YS mac eat breakfast

try the mac gridder wah..

it was lyk sweet de lor

haiz waste money to buy sweets that is damn xpensive

hm.. after tad juz went home take a rest for 3 hrs

went out again to study E math

mit kahee at 6.30pm

haha as usual im late again

study till 10pm went home again

haiz my day damn borin lor

everydae study study study

btw goin for my appointment again

haiz..

tis is serious

hope tad my hand dnt get worse

coz sometyms k hear some crack sound in it

altot its nt pain but still will worried de

and oso hope tad after tml nt goin to put the cast anymore

as it is so ma fan n stink

k u imagine a hand wic hav nt been wash for 3 wks ma

wad wiill be the smell

er......

haiz...tml will hav air pollution at TTSH

so patients pls get ready a mask for urself ba

lolx...LAME!!!

hehe tads my name

zhi yao xiao yi xiao, zhe ge shi jie cai hui gen mei hao

-end here-

stress

2008-05-05T00:37:00.003+08:00

ytd dnt post coz its a very borin dae 4 miie

juz study study and study

hm...

dun feel well todae

haiz maybe is ytd the ting i eat ba

haiz nvm...

today is adrian b'dae

haha tink of goin there throw whip cream at him de

but all the crew scared the new boss angry so ended up doin nth

haiz but there is a fuckin pig

his nose was lyk pig lor

haha dun feel lyk scoldin him de

coz he make miie, adrian, jasmine, and even karshuri so mad

as the crew room is only for crew to go in de

but he ended up walk in wifout any permission given

if there is still "NO"

so jasmine juz giv him a fierce face and say"OUT"

he lan lan lah

but after tad he came disturb the door of the crew room

as the door is spoilt

he is lyk usin his fuckin hand keep on pushin the door to open

wah....

knt stand him juz giv him a warnin and i even bang on the door...

but haiz no use...

nxt one up was adrian

haha he juz open the door giv him a damn fierce look

evem slam the door

haiz...stil no use

lolx in the end he sit outside and stared at him

miie and karshuri was like diao..

lolx..n oso quite funni

haha so tings was lyk bck to normal le

after that adrian went off and heard tad he goin to go out wif zhixin n others to celebrate his b'dae

haiz too bad i got exam

i oso heard tad there is a nick for zhixin

hm...

kol......

sua lin long

water zero dragon(in chinese)...

so btw tis is a reminder to zhi xin and lyson

there is a boii love you two sia

haha he keep sayin wo xi huan lyson

wo xi huan zhixin

haha becareful coz tis person if u al noe very tokative de

n he oso wil drive miie mad and scared too

so i juz went walk around wif hui zheng and his bro

go c hp n tads all

when they went home i went to YS mac continue study geo.T.T

haiz saw alot of ppl

allen, jasmine, jianxin, jo best(dunno how to spell) my bro and his frenz

haiz study for awhile kahee came den we study tell 9 plus jiu go home le

haha dun tink goin to slp ltr

T.T

coz goin study for my geo.

haiz 3 more chapter sia

juz hope tad tml wun get any headache

pls and thx god

wish miie luck for my geo tml and hope tad ltr i wun fall aslp ok

lolx..

hey sorry mingwei for throwin temper at u as i was so stress up of geo.

paiseh...gd luck 4 tml

HAPPIIE BIRTHDAE ADRIAN!!!!!

-end here-

study dae

2008-05-02T00:57:00.002+08:00

today woke up at 12noon coz tis mornin 4am den slp

den go bath n went to yishun mac to study for abt 2hrs

hm...reach there abt 3pm ba

den heard tad adrian and charlene b'dae comin le

so weilun(manager ask miie wanna share money for their present

haha i say ok so giv $10 to sally

abt 5 plus

kahee told miie tad YS mac there no sit so told him cum to NPmac

haha when he came we change to burger king again

lolx...too bad there felt tad very noisy so kol peggy juz wanna ask whether YS there stil got sit ma..

but fuckq put down my fone...

@$%#@#%^$%%!!!!!

so take bus to YS mac

lolx...spend so much tym walkin n findin places

haha in the end still stay at YS mac study

reach there saw jasmine, PEGGY(=_=), and kristy

after a while kristy went home left 4 of us lor

haiz abt 8 plus we went to eat at coffeeshop

haha coz mac very xpensive omoz block le so haha....

ya im stingy..hehe

i noe....

hm...after eatin the gals went home le

so left miie and kahee study till 10.30pm

so went home le

hm... tads my dae for today

nth much or interestin tings to chat abt

haha wish miie luck for my physics and chinrese paper 1

ok...

thx....

gd luck for ur al 2o ok

i m both happy sad sad to see that

but nvm..

U HAPPIIE, I HAPPIIE

speechless

2008-05-01T01:42:00.003+08:00

today woke up at 5.50am

haha but in the end still late for skl

haha nvm i tink my teacher oso use to it le ba

hm...really nt prepare for my SS exam

but no choce stil hav to take ma

hm... so went to office to hav my exam as i hav xtra 30mins

since my hand is injured

haha tads good but still tink tad nt goin to do well

as the memorisin matter dnt really wrk for miie

hm.. nvm k pass k le ba

btw hav to stop worried of SS exam ma as its had oreadi over

so must worried jiu worried of my papers tad is left

xspoecially geo. exam

coz i m extremely weak in tis subject

god bless miie pls

so after tad did my E math paper 1

hm... k say its easy ba

but nt really confident tad i k score A1

haha i noe very greedy coz i put math as the most important subject of all

so my expectation will be higher ba

den went home for a while

get change went out at 5.30pm to study wif frenz

btw we shld mit at 5.30pm de haha but instead.....haha

go there dnt really study juz chat only until 10.30pm

so went to 139 there wif yuchao to mit his frenz as they r there playin Basketbal

hm...kind of miiss tis sport so much so play it wif my left hand

hope lyk tad wun affect my rite hand much ba

abt 11.11pm

haha so funni the tym

went home n blog

hm tink tad tml goin to study alone at mac for physics

hm.. so must try my best to understand it ASAP ba

and frenz u r rite

i m kind of to rush le

maybe tryin to be kinda slower down my foot step ba

no matter wad ting happen

ass i say must be happy to accept it

muz noe how to train my way of findin a solution ASAP

and lastly tink positively

thx for all ur advice frenz..

-end here-

This has been bothering me for quite some time. I thought it was all over, but this ain't the case. I'm still struggling, I wanna know what you're thinking. They somehow still affects me in one way or another. damn.

worried

2008-04-29T22:11:00.002+08:00

today woke up at 7am

oh haha im late for skl

den when reach skl dnt hav A math coz late for ! hr plus

lolx.....

hm... today learn a lot of tings frm yu chao

hhaha my class lao gay

hm... u r rite ba

maybe realli nid to learn more frm u

but nt learn gay frm u on how to be gay

lolx....

after skl went to &!& wif i chun hav my lunch le jiu go NP mac study for SS exam

sian lah so much to memorise

haiz n saw esther my so kol niease(dunno how to spell)

but she 4got hu i m le

T.T.....so hurt sia

haha den also found out tad today will be charlene last day wrkin in mac

as she wanted to get ready to study le

hm...gd luck to you

hm... abt 7.20pm go change a place n study until 8 plus den go home le

quite worried

its nt only for my exam but other ting tad happen juz nw]

juz hope tad my luck no so bad ba

coz its oreadi pass i k do nth of it nw

hm den reach home blog again

tml goin get emo again

so i tink nt goin to tok tml ba

sory frenz

wish miie luck for my exam tml ba

ok thx...

-end here-

nth much

2008-04-28T23:27:00.002+08:00

today went to skl as usual

nth seems to be funni

accept the F...word wic my form teacher ms rajas accidentally goin to say it

but she dnt

lolx....

after skl went to khatib wif i chun n celebrate huo lin n farmer birthdae

haha shld say belated birthdae for huo lin

coz his birthdae is on the 26 of april

hm...

den go jx house

btw the bakery shop is so rude

(ask her wad does the cakes contain on it) in a polite way

after tad she juz say

cake lah!!!

diao...

hu dunno say rubbish only

after celebratin c some video on break dance n basketball

haha 5.30pm went to Np mac study coz SS exam is on tuesdaE

HAIZ HAVEN EVEN FINIS THE MEMORISIN YET!!!

so 9pm went home den ost again

haiz today k say quite boring again

coz i use to hav someting to do de

but wifout u my life is juz lyk a blank piece of paper

oki jiayou for ur exam

n to others too

-end here-

tokin out wad i want to say nw

2008-04-28T01:46:00.002+08:00

altot its late at nite le

but jux gonna write my feelin out

today as i woke up at 11.30am

realli want to go admiralty n show up myself infront of u

to c u go n bck for tuition

but i juz realli fail to do it

coz as u say u hated miie nw

scared u will get bad mood again

so did felt remorse of wad i have done for the past 4 months

after readin ur blog for the 4 months

i realli felt tad i change a lot le

maybe its coz of my age ba

when gettin older will get to tink more

but i juz did it in the way tad is hurtin u

i realli wanted to be bck to the past

or if u dunwan i will make new memories tad

and how i wish tad im able to kol u _________ again

but

how i was in the past n nw

reallli make a big different i find

................................

i m speechless nw

dunno when i m goin to get u bck

or u k say its nt possible

i noe its hard to change ur thoughts nw

but juz let the boat flow ba

chuang dao qiao dou zhi ran zhi(in chinese)

when boat reaches the bridge it will go straight again(english version n i noe very bad eng too)

tis is wad i will say to myself ba

n also hope tad the tym will recover the wound tad i hav cause on u

and the hatred 2wards miie

so when abt 5 plus went to NP mac do hmwrk till 9pm

den take bus go home le

today is a boring day for miie

n it is also the day of my regrets

guess its too late to say tad le

happiie dae for u ok

dun cut urself again ok

coz i still will felt hurt de

hope tad u will nt avoid miie again ok

boring day

2008-04-27T00:00:00.002+08:00

actualli dnt feel lyk bloggin today de

since its a borin dae for miie todae

haiz...

woke up at 12plus coz ytd slp very late

haha oso 4got whether did or did i nt off the televison last night

lolx....

hm den go on9... but dnt realli chat wif others coz no mood

after tad eat lunch den do homework till 7pm

go bath haha

dnt bath last night lolx after cumin bck frm skl

ez....

i noe

den watch tv till 11 plus den cum blog

haiz so boring today

and i juz found that i have nt done the tings for days

opps...short term memory

haiz...

coz i remindered myself to do eat it

once a day

can not do it more nor less

must do it juz nice

evey day 1

till 100

haha very currious ba

-end here-

new song

2008-04-25T23:03:00.000+08:00

juz change the song

hop ur al lyk it

lolx.....

(the shortest blog i ever have)

nth btr to do

2008-04-25T20:12:00.004+08:00

i tink till now u r still hatin miie ba

kt realli do anyting abt it

juz hav to be glab abt it ba

altot how much i post here i tink u will nvr read de ba

hm....

continue to hate miie ba

dun tink goin to forgive myself ba

at least will feel better

almost goin to let go of u le

realli wanna to hold it 4eva

but dun tink u will be happiie abt it

as realli wanna to say tad ting to u coz realli kt 4get u

they are...

8 letters

3 words

1 meaning

if realli got a chance to be frenz again

maybe.....

nvm le realli happy to noe u

thx for givin the memories tad i ever have

a home i will say tad

u r juz a wife to miie till now

but i bet i m juz an fucker or bastard to u ba

its ok coz at least i still exist

at least i m nt ignore

nt left a side

thx....

___po____

i tink u should noe wad is tis ba

i get the name for u when u get it 4 miie in the 1st place

the memories i will nvr 4get de

thx for ur present

im realli happiie to have those memories kept in my mind 4eva

bye.....

-end here-

weixin i will love u forever

goodbye frm nw

the old kelvin nt goin to be bck le

u will only see a devil ba

tads all i would want to say

2008-04-24T20:55:00.002+08:00

This lie's become a part of me

For weeks, I've played this game

Acting like it doesn't hurt

Each time I hear her name

Ignoring what's inside of me

Pretending I've moved on

As if the feelings I once had

For her are somehow gone

Spending each and every day

With happiness and laughs

Forgetting all our memories

Avoiding photographs

But last night when I saw her

For the first time since she left

My heart stopped for a moment...

I couldn't catch my breath

When suddenly it hit me

As the tears started to flow

That even after all this time...

I just can't let her go

She is so important to me

Just don't bear to let her go

Missing you is what i will do now

Loving you is what i will do forever

Till death comes my way

emo came bck again

2008-04-24T20:14:00.003+08:00

hi..im goin to be crazy le

exams....

n.............

dunno how to say tad

1 day i realli goin to collapse

haiz..god r u playin wif miie or r u givin miie a life test

m i so irritatin

oreadi try my best to do wad i shld do nw

but y juz kt u simply giv miie a break

god...

im hurt u noe

dun tink tad im goin to hav the mood nw

exams maybe goin to giv up ba

realli tired nw

stop givin miie any surprise k

im realli tired nw

realli realli tired nw

actualli i 1ed to post out good news de

but ended up realli goin to be crazy le

as i say b4 i k realli be crazy

is it realli easy to let go

y r u able to do it so easy..

mayb goin to kill myself nw

my hear was lyk oreadi dead

no heart bit

no nth

or u k say i realli dun hav a heart nw

its easy to say dan done

dunno wad the hell i m nw

im juz maybe a freak ba

juz maybe im realli a freak ba

my life is so meanless nw

dun tink goin to fulfill my dream ba

bye...

i juz simply duno y r u hiddin frm miie

m i tad irritatin

im exhausted nw

gongkia gongkia..

im simply lyk a dai kia nw(retarded)

encouragin

2008-04-23T22:28:00.004+08:00

hey dun get so moody ok

as u r a strong gal wic i noe in the 1st place

so seldom will c u cry de

if the person u mean is miie

dun hav to worried

i wil nt transfer skl de as im nt so stupid enough to change to ur skl

lolx...no offence

n in addition my skl is so near there haha k go there whenever 1 wan

lolx jux makin a xample

haha i still hav tings tad i haven fulfill for the skl yet

haha so take it easy ok

dun cry le

i dun wan hear tad u cry again ok

coz tis is nt u

be bck urself ba

jiayou.....

as exams is comin so dun get too stress up le

let urself to free a bit

dun tink so much too

haha finalli able to say tis sentence to u

lolx

since exam is around the corner

muz jiayou ok especially for ur A math

if feel stress kol n tok to ur frenz ok

or watch 1 disc or the vcd kkz...

altot i noe u wun get stress for tis..lolx

but juz say say i tink k ba

lolx....

hm... 2day late for skl lei

haha break record sia..

i late for 1hr lei

lolx....

so juz go bck class n start wif the second lesson

haha

so sio k rest for english as my 1st lesson is eng

lolx...

but T.T.....

tml eng paper 1 & 2

dnt noe wad to study haha juz try my best ba

hm.. after skl eng tuition

haha half a slp again

haha mr james ng was lyk so gay

lolx..

coz he was jumpin over a wire so gayly sia

haha my frenz saw miie laugh they also laugh 2o

in addition also scold miie kaobei lor

lolx....

after skl go somewhere walk alone..T.T

haiz no choice ma

haiz went bck home post lor

2dae my tym was lyk so sian

den tads y nth 2 write abt...

haiz....

muz be positive ok........

gd luck for ur exam....

-end here-

if u able to read tis pls dun be stress again

wei xin jiu shi weixin

so i dun wan c u lyk tad coz very heart pain sometyms

enjoy ur life ok

jiayou! jiayou! jiayou!

gongkia will always be there for u

unless u realli nid miie...

haha dun tink is possible

coz k c tad there is so mani good frenz surrounded u

lolx...ask weilee A math if dunno ok..

gettin crazy soon

2008-04-22T23:11:00.002+08:00

after tinkin

i tink u r rite..

i realli dnt be there for u when u nid miie

but did u tel miie tad u r sad?

did u tel miie tad u nid miie?

ya i noe tis realli nid initiative..

n do u noe tad im strugglin to tink of wad u r tinkin abt

i did ask u but did u tell miie anyting

im tryin to ask den u juz say dunno how to say

did i fail to mit u when u wanted to mit?

i even sacrifice my cca for u

i dun care of wad the hell is tad

i even dun mind to send u home altot its very late le

i dun mind to wait for the 2 hrs for u

coz everytym when the ur tuition finis im so happy

coz after tad the 1st ting i saw will be a smile on ur face

n i lyk to c tad

i wanted to ask u a lot question but u tel miie wad did u reply?

as u say im nt there for u

but do u tink u r there for miie when i nid u

coz realli misss u a lot le

sometyms sms u late reply

coz u busy

nvm

but when after tad when i say i wanted to mit?

wad did u say?

"dun tink k mit todae"

but ended up playin volley in skl

ok i fine wif it

coz i dun 1 force u to do someting tad u doesnt 1 to do

dun u tink tad u r selfish to say tad im nt there for u always?

when the hell did i try to miss the tym or chance wic r able 2 spend wif u?

ok nw u k say tad im selfish but did u noe how i feel when u say im nt there for u

no matter where u r?

when is the tym?

how difficult to get there?

in the end i wil stil appear in front of u

did i realli miss a chance to see u

im tryin to be a good bf le

but u stil say i did nt enough

i did make ur mood bad but hav u tink tad

did u?

or did u not?

make my mood bad too

ya i hav bad temper but do u hav ma

altot sometyms u say tad u will but nt muz to change ur attidude

but i did tel myself i muz change

but do u noe if 1 change nid tym de lei

i did ting liang u

but did u ting liang miie

actualli i dun tink of sayin tis but dun u felt tad u r selfish too

m i realli busy tad tym???

did u ask miie?

u only say tings on wad u feel?

did u realli found out the truth?

ok i noe u lyk spendin tym wif ur frenz...

did i force u to leave ur frenz n go out wif miie

thx for sacrifice for miie

i noe u did sometyms bangsan ur frenz

i did tad too i even skip my detention

do u noe when the tym i hurt my hand i felt so pain so pain in my heart

coz my teachers dun wanna let miie go home myself

so tads y i dnt mit u on tad dae

i was lyk damb fuckin hell

y dun let miie go

so after tad i did try to bu chang

i dun wan say sorry le

coz sayin that word to u u wil say dunwan listen to tad

n sayin tad word wic i oso nt in the wrong

do u tink tad u r in the wrong too

ya i noe i dnt sms u n i oso dunno tad u r actualli waitin for miie to do so

but did i tell each other in the 1st place if anyting nt happy wif miie lets sit down n tok it out

the previous tym ask u whether is there anyting u r nt happy wif miie?

u say dunno wad to say

but nw say so mani tings le

do u feel much btr?

i oso noe tad now is nt the tym for u to see miie

coz ur qi haven recover

lets see in the future ba...

-end here-

retardard

2008-04-21T23:07:00.003+08:00

2day juz found out frenz my frenz tad i m such a irritated person

i dnt noe tad after tad juz get emo again

2day juz when to godma shop to c her

coz nvr c her for 2 weeks le

tml she goin overseas le...hm.. wish u hav a great tym

after readin here blog i realli very sad

but make my mind clearer of wad i realli 1 to be le

hm.. i tink u r write i realli dnt done wad a bf shld do

im nt deserve for others to love if i dunno how to luv others

i tink maybe will juzz stay quiet forever coz nwadaes oso dun feel lyk tokin

maybe bein a quiet guy wil make miie btr ba

ya its over

its realli over

im done wif myself i hav nth left n i oso dun1 2 left anyting

coz tis will make others more pain

i rather be alone n juz alone coz i tink tis is the best for others n also the best for miie

so frenz if u saw miie in skl so quiet dun be surprise

im done wif myself le so i tink u aal k juz leave miie alone

i dun1 others to get hurt again

so when nxt tym u c miie juz imagine tad im juz lyk tad in the past

or u k say tad im juz changed

n i tink im goin to be happiie in tis way

sory frenz n....

heard tad u dun1 2 hear tis word so maybe im juz hav to be a tough person

so anybody tad read tis post

hope tad frm 2days onwards

i changed juz becoz is for ur al own good

sporty gal dun cut urself again

n i dun tink we r goin 2 meet again

altot tads hurt

but for u i tink u will felt much btr ba

coz lyk tad i kt hurt u anymore le ba as u say its over

ok bye weixin....

found out sometings

2008-04-20T22:53:00.003+08:00

as i xpected realli bad tings happen

today juz found out someting

make miie so sad

1 maybe is misunderstandin

but the other 1 dun feel lyk sayin

haiz...

the tings make miie so so sad

i feel lyk im juz disturbin her tads y unable to chat wif her

n dnt even noe tad she is sad taday

wanna sms but juz no guts

hey where hav my guts run to

i want it bck

sorry..

this is the only ting i k say

make u in so so difficult state..

abt the misunderstandin...

haiz i noe i very chongdong when read abt tad...

but my heart really crack

as i say i dnt noe how to react when u hav a new bf

realli kind of heart tad injured in addition was put salt on it/

ya i realli tryin to control myself of seein u

ya as u say

wanna to be in my mind tad wil easily 4get

but as i promise to u tad my heart has oreadi be wif u

no matter wad happen i realli juz kt 4get abt u

i realli want to noe tad how is my character in sec3

i realli dnt noe tad im changin frm bad to worse

im a real slow guy 2o

hope tad u will really giv miie 1 more chance to change 4 u

as u say u r nt a so special gal

but to miie u r..

and i mean it

u k say tad im stubborn

but tads miie tad u noe in the 1st place

i k definitely comform wif u

and i oso dunno how u feel when we r 2gether

im a bad bf but k u giv miie a chance to prove to u tad my heart is real

i felt tad i done a lot of bad tings after we break

coz i dnt noe tad many ppls is scoldin u

so do i hav to keep to myself if i hav someting to say

coz lyk wadeva i do

always wil make u hurt de

shld say tad they muz get the whole story den c whether u did rite or wrong//

n u also ask miie y always push all the fault to myself

but if nt so

why will u be gettin of so much scoldin

if u wan miie to do tad i dun mind to keep the tings to myself

sacrifice 4 u is the most worth it tings tad i hav ever done

i wont 4get u de...

altot i did try to do it

but i fail

do u tink tad its a bad ting or good ting???

i realli lookin forward to see u again coincidence

actualli im nt tryin to force u

coz i noe tad if i realli force u tad is nt kol luv le

but instead u r carryin a big burden

i wan u to be happy to accept miie again lyk b4

altot u say tad "we wil nvr patch n once a luv is gone

it will be gone 4ever"

k u allow miie 2 tel u tad

tads nt goin to bre true???

i juz want to ask

(will u willing to wait for the old kelvin to be bck ma?)

and will u listen to miie say again tad

(if u hav a bf, k my character be tad person ma?)

tads wad i wanted to say

n lastly tis is to tel u tad

altot sometyms i dun seem lyk care

but definitely

i do care......

hope tad if u got a chance to read tis u wun be xtra mad of miie

thx.....^^

pics...

2008-04-20T20:50:00.002+08:00

wah tings for prayin....

so yammi...

u c this... tis is so hot lor

haha my uncle n aunty

1st er gu ma, 2nd da gu ma, 3rd ah pa

wah so much tings...
can see tad they r playin hard...
hm...lion dance cumin
the entrance....
haha juz find it cool

so tired....

2008-04-20T13:54:00.004+08:00

today woke up at 7.30am coz nid go my aunt house there so to get ready for the shao mu ting

haiz so sian lor dnt tok much in the mornin

coz emotional comes my way again

haiz...

pray my grandma n dad at mandai there

hehe

request alot frm them

haha u k say is abt 4 and above wishes ba..lolx

such a greedy i noe..lolx

den after tad get emo again haiz....

after tad took my cousin car wif my uncle n aunty to pray my great grandpa n ma at bishan...

hm..

it hav been long seens the last tym i went there

i only rmb tad im very small tad tym...

lolx...

took some pics there

haha at nite c k upload or nt lor

haha dun hav to be so excited to c the pic...

coz....

im nt in the pic lolx

BHB.....

at there found out another two relative i have

haha dunno is 4get them le or dnt c them b4

haha it was lyk so complicated lor

lolx....

btw 4get to mansion tad the place is damn hot lor

#$%^&@*@!....

haiz nw at my cousin house nth to do so create newv post lor

whetherin wad will happen nxt

hope tad no matter is good or bad

im wish tad i still able to see her

i did miss her a lot

haiz.. wad k i do to regain the feelin we hav b4 lei

really k't stop myself of tinkin of u

god k u giv miie a sight tad we tell miie wad to do

pls...

saturday....

2008-04-19T23:39:00.003+08:00

hi came bck to post again...lolx

hm...today u k say is damn fun n emo day again for miie...lolx

dunno y tis mornin get up haiz... the feelin is bck again

hm... today went to mit adrian boonpin sally n weilee( dnt noe she was there lox)

we go eat first together so den take bus 852 to king wad park de

wic is located at bukit timah...

wei lee went home as the place we goin is for the mac barista to hav an tok there

wah....

the bus took 45min+ to reac there lor

haha when reach there le we r slightly a little late ba...lolx

den the tok was juz startin when we reach there....

lolx..so lucky

the tok was tok by rayson lee our head of mccafe ba

n he is the 1st to learn the mccafe de...

hm... my mood was so moody in the 1st place de

but durin his tok

i felt tad he has brighten my day

coz his jokes was damn funni lor

haha he his able to link his jokes and tings tad to improve our services 2gether

lolx hm... dnt actualli regret of goin there but....his xpectation is high lor

haiz nvm seems im nt goin to wrk for 3 months...muhaha..

lame....i noe

hm...after his listen went bck to yishun coz wanted to visit irene wic hav juz giv birth 2 a baby gal

but on the way saw marcus n jasmine at mac slackin again

haha lets tel the truth ba

she was quite pretty on tad dae

haha by a frenz look....no other meanings

after they went home wei lee came n join us to hav a visit too

haiz..when i saw her

she reminds miie of somebody

...............

when we reach irene house...

haiz dnt get a chane to hav a look on her baby coz she was bring bck to the hospital

as her skin colour is turnin yellowish

hm...nxt ba

if hav a chance to c her i upload her foto ok

haha so muz giv comments too kkz...

(juz lyk a little kid)

muhaha....

n den so diao lor coz they are choosin a name for the baby lor...haix

a little sian coz nt realli interested

lolx....

after tad when emo again..lolx

haha tel u someting im very easy to get emo de

lolx....

abt 10pm

all of us went home as she wanted to hav some rest

take cab to NP mac coz adrian nid to pass the bun to the store

haha den go home liao le lor

lolx...a little sian coz so early jiu hav 2 go home le..

lastly...

2day i learn someting frm rayson

haha n i wil nvr 4get

1)what we say to others......they will believe 10%

2)how we say it to others.......they will believe 40%

3)body language.......they will believe 50%

so to archive 100% of customer trust we muz put tis three steps in our mind

to miie nt only serving customer

i tink to hav ur love to trust u 100%

or tellin he or she how much u luv them

we hav to fullfill this 3 steps too

dun u tink so???

92days to go

i juz found out tad

when the tym yi fen yi miao de guo qu

i love u more and more

i started to miss u le

hm..wish u will be happiie 4eva...

sad n emo day...

2008-04-18T23:23:00.004+08:00

today dnt go skl again as im goin 4 my appointment.....

haiz wake up at 9.30am den went out at 10am....

den take bus 2 adjunie mrt station

wow... 2dae so scared sia

coz i tot i lost my wallet luckily in the end found it...

haiz u k says its a bad day 2day coz reach there le go have an x-ray again...

den wah kao doc. say i knt do pe for 3 months sia...

haiz.....my favourite sports.....

after put the cast go for have my payment..

shit sia....

$72++

wah i was whetherin when my nxt appointment tad is held 2 wks ltr

will it goin to be tad amount again.....

haiz..heartpain

after tad i went to visit my grandpa

i felt so sad tad after the operation, the doc. sew bck the throat wif metal...

wah..so horrible sia..

but i tink he is ok by nw coz he stil k tel miie lame jokes lor

=_=lll

lolx.....

altot he is fine, but i did felt sad 2o but i dnt show him

i k be emo but i k't be sad as 16yrs old boy le

muz noe how 2 tink positively

after tad went bck 2 skl collect my homwrk again..lolx

den found out theres a fight in my class

hm.. altot frenz quarrel n fights but i tink that their anger will be gone very fast de

coz i believe frenz will 4giv each other no matter wad they did..

we juz gonna try 2 4get the pass n start a new...

so hope tad u 2 will be ok on monday...kkz

den after tad slack in skl again

haha coz my character is lyk to be free outside but nt lock in a cage de..lolx

when reach hme dunno at abt 7.30pm

dunno wad came into my mind again...haiz started to get emo again

haiz....

hm..in this world nth is imossible for miie to overcome it....
but when it comes to love
i felt tad im such an idiot...
dnt ever noe wad a gals realli want.....
i m a bad bf wic kt ever giv my love xinfu....
i realli regretted

dnt even zuo hao my ben fen of bein a bf

im sory....

i realli wanna u 2 giv miie another chance

as i say juz nw we muz noe how to forgive and forget...

k u forgive miie n den forget abt the past...

i will change.....

if u realli got a chance to read tis...

i tink u will be mad n tink tad im stubborn ba

im stubborn coz i realli fell into ur well very deeply le...

altot between us there is a lot of great memories

but can we be 2gether again n make more and more memories tad is belongs to ours only...

93days to go.....

i rmb tad u told miie tad once the feelin is gone

it will be gone forever

k u give miie a chance to prove to u tad tad is nt true...

weixin lovin u is the last ting tad i will do in my life

if luvin u is a mistake

i will rather nvr to be rite forever...

boring......

2008-04-17T23:19:00.008+08:00

hi.....

came bck to blog again...lolx

haha juz nw went bck to skl to collect my homwrk....

but b4 tad i went to collect my money for the x-ray ting wic they overcharged miie...

$32.10 lei...so much to miie new now leii..lolx

haha i noe im stingy coz no choice tis few days spent a lot on my medical bill...

hm... my total medical bill will be maybe around 200 plus leii...

den tml still hav to go bck TTS for an appointment of my hand again.....

wah... heart pain sia.....

oso dunno whether k claim bck by the skl insurrance...

haiz if knt i heart pain until siao le...

haha shld say even siao coz my name is seow keong....

lolx...lame.....

haiz... god i promised i dun wanna to be hurt again.....

haiz.... this accident make miie so angry coz so mani tings knt do.....

haizzzz.........

hope tad tml when i go there....

they will say my injury is btr le so dun hav 2 go bck le.....

the cast(dunno how to spell) only hav to put for another 1 month k le.....

wah... lyk tad is the most good 1.....haha.....

i really wish tad my hand will recover ASAP lor....

haha pls god fullfill my wish ba.....

lolx.....

hm.... haha muz tink postive ma...

if ur al read until laugh.....

btw i feel tad i sounds lyk a girl now leii....lolx.....

hm.... after tad appointment goin to visit my grandpa as he had juz finis his operation.....

hm....hope tad he is ok....altot he is very old nw....

but i realli wish tad he k stay healthy till my brothers n i have some success....

the other reason is coz i dunn wanna to lost another luv 1....

as i hav oreadi lost 2 of it in sec 1....

my dad n my grandma....T.T....

tis 3 person is quite important to miie coz they see n feed miie up de....

so pls bless my grandpa will be good n doesnt do tings tad is harmful to his body....

hm..... when reach skl got my homewrk le den juz slack around....

haha den go home...

i tink tads for today ba......lolx

u happiie i happiie ok....

altot i k't giv u xinfu nw....

but i tink i k wish u xin fu ba....

rite.....by now lets be my loveable godsis ba...

hm... if lovin u is a mistake...i rather nt be rite 4eva

my first blog....

2008-04-17T12:09:00.000+08:00

hi.....

this is my first time of blogging

actually i dun really wad is this all abt in the begining

but after viewin my frenz blog 4 so many tyms i feel like making 1 of my own too

didnt know how to start first nvm....

some of my frenz tinks bloggin is so lame u k say miie 2o

but sometyms when u dun feel lyk tellin others wad u feel u can juz write it here..

altot im kind of lame here....lolx

really sad this few days dunno i feel lyk i hav lost my way 2wards my future

actualli my hand is factured nw so kind of lost my mood nw...

tml hav 2 go 4 my appointment check actualli im kind of scared nw....

but still hav 2 face it ba juz pls god hope tad tml when i go there, there will be good news

n god let my hand recover ASAP ok...thx

there is so mani reasons 2 make miie feel so unhappy

dunno why i wil say tad nvm....

lets tok abt ytd ba....

btw i hav juz started my english tuition...

i tot it might help us more but in the end....

wah...lyk pri school kids lor...lolx

haiz...he tok crap 4 the passed 30mins den after tad finalli starts his lesson

but i was slpin...lolx

kind of borin lor....i slpt 4 abt 3omins n diao.....haha dnt realli listen 2 wad he is sayin.....

haha after tuition end nth 2 do juz slack around in skl till 6.3opm

den pei my frenz 2 stay in skl 2 do so homewrk haiz...Amath is gettin harder so dunno when still k get hold of it...haha lame..

but as i say A math is fun n interestin k train our brain cell but it will also kill our brain cell too...

.....T.T......lolx....

so after tad juz went home n tel my frenz 2 guide miie while creatin blog...lolx

thx jaejae...

i will stil lear more of it de....lolx...

hm...den after tad slp le....

haha dnt go skl 2day coz knt wake up...lolx

so dunno y i find it myself gettin lazier..

haha juz maybe my hand lyk tad realli dunno wad to do...haha

no mood to study too....haha....

ok end here nw....

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